It was very difficult for me to relive and watch this past episode.
I truly wish I never said anything in front of Bethenny, Jules and Carole about what I heard John was saying behind Dorinda's back. I should of spoken to Dorinda in private, one on one. I have known her for 20 years and was pained by how hurt she was.
That being said, there was no ambush. Perhaps this is Dorinda's way to deflect what really happened, the horrific way John acted toward everyone.
Bethenny had a genuine concern about Dorinda "selling us" on John, and I had a genuine concern about what John was saying about Dorinda. I believe women who are friends should be open and verbalize their concerns on someone's relationships, behavior or actions. I believe good friends have a responsibility toward each other. If a friend can't question what's going on in your life, then who can?
Bethenny and I were not comming from a bad place. We both just wanted to "discuss" what we "thought" we were noticing. Dorinda got way too defensive and didn't want to have any type of exchange. I was beyond shocked at her reaction, so much so I was nervous to say I was wrong and should have told her alone. I was nervous she would overreact again to what I would say.
When I saw how John came in to the bra party after I left to say what he did... To say I was shocked is an understatement. The things that came out of John's mouth were beyond horrible about everyone. There wasn't any need for it.
Dorinda summed it up at Pierre's: "It's my life, and I'll do what I want."
So there you go...that's that. No more discussion about John.