On that note, because I have already dealt with some tough life issues I have a much different outlook on supporting and taking care of myself as a woman. Between my first marriage and losing Jeff I have truly always believed in taking care of myself. I have never looked for the easy road. The easy road is not something I want. I am who I am today because of what I have been through and endured - it has built character in me. I know my mom would love me to settle down and have kids and technically become a stay-at-home mom, but I am too much of an entrepreneur! Even when I have kids I hope to have my businesses up and running and functioning on their own, so I have income coming in and can still care of the kids (one of the most important jobs in the world if you ask me). I tell you this because I want to encourage you to pursue your dreams and don’t let ANYONE tell you that you can’t do it!
I have thoroughly enjoyed the creative space of this business and all the opportunities it has allowed me to explore, particularly the opportunity to focus on my writing. So many of you have asked why my music wasn’t a part of the show this season. Since the release of my song was outside of the timeframe we shot the show, I will give you a little background. I've been writing ever since I was a little girl. I have a book of songs that I have continuously added to over the years. When Jeff passed away, writing was a way for me to express what I was feeling and dealing with internally. I ended up doing a business acquisition of a music-publishing catalog and had the opportunity to work with a top producer by the name of Bryan Todd. I brought my book of songs to him with the hope that my lyrics and ideas would be passed on to big artists in the music industry. We sat down to do a written session, and then a male vocal demo singer sang the song. Once I heard it I felt it was missing something; some sweetness and some country twang, if you will. I started to sing out loud during the writing session and Bryan said, “Gretch, you need to be singing this song!" Let me tell you that it took a lot of coaxing me to get behind the microphone. Once I started to sing the lyrics I found myself singing from the depths of my soul and it became a very therapeutic process for me. I was taking my pain and turning it into music - it was one of the most thrilling feelings I have ever had in my life! I have always loved music and my family is all very musically inclined. We always sit around singing and playing guitars. I know I don’t have a voice like Celion Dion and never claimed to, but Bryan convinced me that the song would resonate with the people so much more due to the tragic loss I had suffered. I am now grateful for that extra little push from him to go for it! I then decided to take my song and use it as way to help save someone else's life. I felt so hopeless when Jeff was sick and then when he passed away. The way I built back hope in my life was by helping others. Download the song on iTunes, and proceeds will go to the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society and the Jeff Beitzel Memorial Fund I started in Jeff's honor. Thank you all for your support of this cause. Here is the link to download: http://bit.ly/a0ms8D
I was just recently asked to do my first live performance, opening for Nicole Scherzinger, the lead singer of the Pussycat Dolls. The performance was held at a club in L.A., in front of one of the hardest critics in the business ... Perez Hilton. (What a super sweet guy he is in person.) The night before the performance I found myself on a phone call with a decision to make. Should I perform, knowing that I have never sang live before, or should I wuss out and watch the opportunity pass me by? Well, I went for it! As scared as I was, so nervous my hands were shaking, I did it! And I even got kudos from Perez afterward! So needless to say, when opportunity comes knocking there is a reason for it and you have to go for it! There will always be haters, but I have learned to let those people be my motivators and then kill them with kindness (they just don’t know what to do with that response.)