So excited to be back for season 5! I was in New York all last week doing press for the premiere of the show (which was so much fun and I want to thank all the wonderful people I meet and got to work with, and yes that includes you Andy) and therefore didn't get a chance to catch up with blogging till today! This first episode was hard to watch because it brought a lot of emotions back to the forefront for me.
The footage of Jeff and I was very emotional for me despite that it has been over a year now since he passed. Every time I think I'm going to be OK seeing Jeff on the show I end up crying. Everyone keeps telling me that it will get easier as time goes by, but I am not sure if I believe that anymore, for me it has actually gotten harder. It sets in even more every day that he REALLY is gone and is not coming back. That void will always be present in my heart no matter how much time goes by.
I sincerely did not want to go to the place Tamra and I ended up in at Lynne's party, but unfortunately there is only so much one girl can take without finally saying enough is enough.
Tamra and I knew we were going to have to talk at some point since we were on the show together, but we both agreed and knew we didn't want to do it there, unfortunately people were stirring the pot and wanted to see us go there.