Episode three is my favorite one so far! I love to write about my thoughts, in case you haven't figured that one out yet, so I think this might be a long blog because this was such a special episode to me and I wanted to touch on a bunch of topics. I know I keep saying this, but I seriously feel so lucky to have such special memories on tape of Jeff and I. Jeff and I have been to Indy a couple times now together and it was definitely one of our favorite places to go! Last year we took my parents and they said it was a dream come true for them to be able to go and have so many fun elements of Jeff's connections come into — play for them. I love seeing Jeff in his element — he knows just about everyone at Indy it seems! I was so excited that he felt well enough to make it out there this year. When we decided to go I saw his eyes light up! Now watching the footage I really see how happy he was being there and I am so grateful in his last days here on earth he got to go do one of his most favorite things one last time — Indy! I know it really made him feel like he wasn't sick to be back in his element working the scene and doing his thing. While I watched the footage of me going around the track in a car, I realized that it doesn't seem like I was going that fast in the car, but we were going up to 160 miles per hour while going into turns and at times it seemed like the car was going to flip or ram itself into the wall. Being able to go around the track, especially with the official pace car driver, is quite a privilege! The driver was an Indy 500 winner, so he knew how to handle the car, but he also knew how to scare me!

It is so exciting to be at an event as big as the Indy 500 and be able to have access to so many VIP areas. To be able to be right on the track before the race with the drivers themselves and ride in the pace cars, and stand on the track where the first turn is when the race starts is pretty darn awesome! The production company did such a great job of capturing the pandemonium of the race and the excitement that is generated by the crowd. Seeing Jeff just laughing at me while I did all my quirky little things makes me miss him even more. He loved me fully and I was the luckiest girl in the world to have a man love me despite my silliness. Indy will always be such a significant part of my memory of Jeff.