So, in this episode, there's a psychic at this party. And I had no idea Slade was sitting behind me. You would think I would, because he's so close behind me, but I had no idea he was back there. Which really sucked. And I was talking to a psychic, that can be a conversation that you get wrapped up in. I think I really wanted answers at the time. I was really vulnerable and I wanted the truth. I really wanted someone to help guide me, because I didn't want to make the wrong decision on my own. So, when she started telling me all that stuff, she was the first one ever to say all that to me. And I was scared. I was scared about making the wrong decision and lose the one thing that was stable and the thing that I love more than anything in my life.
There's a lot more story to come, and I don't want to give too much away, but I'll just say this: When you're in that position, more than anything, the scariest part is worrying about failure. What happens if I make that big leap on my own and think that I can do it on my own and then I fail? It's always hard to say.