Josh: In other words, no we're not together. In the nice well-mannered presentation it's more of a break. She told me the night before, she actually asked me if I love her. I said, "Yeah." She said, "I love you too, but this, we're not going anywhere." She was heavily involved with me in ... cause that was my job ... was parties. I was an event coordinator for three different companies...helping promote clubs, things like that. That type of stuff takes a toll on a person. [I] lost 15 pounds. I mean it's a lot of staying up and partying all night. It's not healthy. I wasn't the mature person to say, "You have to go to school." I was the immature person saying, "I have a hot girl next to me." I didn't look at it right. I didn't handle it the way I should have. I think she's on the East Coast right now. ...I don't get that much information on it, which is hard. I figure how bad could it be? She's been gone for three or four months now.

Lauri: It was interesting that you just said that you lost 15 pounds because actually, what viewers don't know, is two weeks after the wedding, Josh took a major step to get himself out of the situation he was in. So, he went into a hospital, and I mean his weight was 130 pounds. He's now at, what 170, Josh? It was a huge amount.

Josh: I looked like shit at the wedding. I was like, "God is that me?"

Lauri: Josh's appearance was...it was shocking to me, especially when I got my wedding photos back. He looked like a concentration camp survivor or someone going through chemotherapy. I don't think Josh realized how close to death he was. He was so emaciated.