But I am really tired of going through this life alone, and yes I understand that my feisty comments to and about Billy might make some people ask ... how can I call myself Christian? Check out Matthew 9:12. On hearing this, Jesus said, "Those who are well have no need of a physician, but those who are sick." Believing in God does not make me perfect. No, far from it. I realize that I am weak and that I need his help. Why is it so hard to find the right man for me? I'm starting to think that younger men are really not for me.