Wow, I can't believe the season is over. On the other hand, it seemed like it was never going to end. This was a really hard season for me and for some of the others. I have learned so much and honestly feel really bad about some of the things I said. I have learned that I need to keep my thoughts to myself, especially if they are not nice ones and to be more understanding of other people's problems! I do read my blog comments and I thank everyone that writes in, even if it was mean. I take them all into consideration and I try to become a better person. I definitely felt that I was the mean girl this season and although I think most successful shows usually have at least one bitch, I am not sure I liked filling those shoes. I wish they would have showed more of my kids and family life. We filmed so much together – BBQ, pool parties, birthday parties, father's day, family day at the beach, Harley rides. I guess those moments were too boring to show. I think the show took a turn in a different direction this season. It was more about all the girls filming together and capturing drama then documenting our individual lives. Any time you put a bunch of ladies together who are not necessarily friends, there is going to be some drama.
I was very happy that I got to film with my father. I know from a lot of the blog comments that people did not understand why I was so upset. It was not the divorce that hurt me and my brothers. For 25 years we had a very tight family, then in one day he stopped being there for us and he left my Mom for her friend and turned his back on his family. He never tried to explain his actions. We all know that divorce happens, and you deal with it the best you can. But abandonment, whether it is emotional or physical, is a very serious issue and hurts at any age. Having been divorced with a small child and having gone through my parents' divorce as an adult, I learned a lot. Make your kids first priority and just because you are divorcing your spouse doesn't mean you're divorcing your children. Communication is the key to happiness.