It was really nice going out to lunch with Gretchen and Ann. I told Ann how horrible I felt about being so catty with the other girls in the limo and thought it would be nice to go out to lunch and have a heart to heart. The comments in the limo were all in fun and there was NO truth in any of them, but now looking back it was at Gretchen expense, and that is just not cool. I felt the need to tell Gretchen what was said to basically get it off my chest. I am a very outspoken person and I rarely hold anything back, but hurting people for no reason is just simply not me. I can understand if Gretchen was mad at us — she had every right to be. The viewers will continue to see the ups and downs of our friendship in the upcoming episodes. I can assure you one thing, it has nothing to do with physical looks, as much as they try to make it out to be. There is one thing I learned a long time ago - there is always someone HOTTER then you! Damnit!

Let's talk about what's hot...I would like to say to viewers, please don't take my comment (I'M the hottest housewife) so seriously. If I truly believed that, I would have to be the stupidest person alive! The only things hot at my age are the hot flashes I get at night. To me, it's hot to be a Mom, a wife, a caregiver, a career woman, a positive person and so much more. Being hot really has nothing to do with physical beauty and it has everything to do with attitude. Putting on a pretty dress and having that extra spring in your step — now that is HOT!

Ryan, Ryan, Ryan...where do I start? I was so disappointed when Ryan told us he didn't want to continue with the CHP testing. I do believe it is something that he has always wanted to do. I think it is the perfect career choice because it is very structured and structure is something he needs. I hope in the near future he reconsiders and continues with his testing. In the meantime I hope he doesn't get pulled over, and if he does I hope the officer uses fuzzy handcuffs!