It was really nice going out to lunch with Gretchen and Ann. I told Ann how horrible I felt about being so catty with the other girls in the limo and thought it would be nice to go out to lunch and have a heart to heart. The comments in the limo were all in fun and there was NO truth in any of them, but now looking back it was at Gretchen expense, and that is just not cool. I felt the need to tell Gretchen what was said to basically get it off my chest. I am a very outspoken person and I rarely hold anything back, but hurting people for no reason is just simply not me. I can understand if Gretchen was mad at us — she had every right to be. The viewers will continue to see the ups and downs of our friendship in the upcoming episodes. I can assure you one thing, it has nothing to do with physical looks, as much as they try to make it out to be. There is one thing I learned a long time ago - there is always someone HOTTER then you! Damnit!
Let's talk about what's hot...I would like to say to viewers, please don't take my comment (I'M the hottest housewife) so seriously. If I truly believed that, I would have to be the stupidest person alive! The only things hot at my age are the hot flashes I get at night. To me, it's hot to be a Mom, a wife, a caregiver, a career woman, a positive person and so much more. Being hot really has nothing to do with physical beauty and it has everything to do with attitude. Putting on a pretty dress and having that extra spring in your step — now that is HOT!
Ryan, Ryan, Ryan...where do I start? I was so disappointed when Ryan told us he didn't want to continue with the CHP testing. I do believe it is something that he has always wanted to do. I think it is the perfect career choice because it is very structured and structure is something he needs. I hope in the near future he reconsiders and continues with his testing. In the meantime I hope he doesn't get pulled over, and if he does I hope the officer uses fuzzy handcuffs!
I have a hard time feeling guilty and taking the blame for Ryan's lack of motivation. Like most divorced parents, you feel so much guilt for choosing a path that is not ideal for your child. As a single Mom I worked almost 7 days a week and he spent a lot of time in daycare - I simply didn't feel like I was there for him enough. I now realize that Ryan is an adult and he needs to choose his own path and take responsibility for his own actions. Simon and I just want Ryan to be happy in whatever career he chooses. I am proud that he continues to hold down a job, I just wish he was working in a career he enjoys. It was exciting watching Simon and Ryan at the shooting range. I think as Ryan gets older he appreciates Simon so much more. I think he finally realizes that Simon just wants what is best for him and a little tough love won't hurt him.
I think Kara looks up to Simon - they have very similar personalities. Simon was more then happy to take Kara to the shooting range. I was suppose to go shooting with them, but backed out at the last minute. I am deathly afraid of guns and I just couldn't do it. I feel the world would be a better place without guns. I was freaked out when the kids said they wanted go and watch, but Simon assured me they would be behind the glass (as they were). Hey Jeana, what's up with the soul mate comment? I thought I was Simon's soul mate!
Our dinner at K'ya started out nice, with good food, cocktails and lots of girl talk. Suddenly that talk turned sour! I'm not sure why Jeana was defending Vicki's ex-husband - I don't even think she knows him. But there is one thing I do know — don't stick up for your friend's ex-husband! I tried to stay neutral, but I couldn't keep my mouth shut (oh, what a surprise). I have little compassion for a parent who has no communication with his or her child. I don't care if they move to the moon - you still stay in contact! As a parent, I would die before I turned my back on my children.
It takes some time for Vicki to warm up to people, but once she trusts you she is a great friend. To me it seems like maybe Vicki has been burned one to many times by her girlfriends and she is just cautious. I think Vicki and Gretchen will be great friends one day. Hold on to your La-Z-Boys - next week's episode looks like a drunk-fest! I'm scared!