When Peggy and Ricky went up to Jeana, they were only trying to help me out. She did exactly what she always does when she gets cornered -- denied and lied! Prior to me throwing the letter at her, the letter dropped to the ground as she refused to accept it. As it was picked up, she pushed me, which is what prompted me to throw it at her. I have never been so mad and heated in my life. After I threw the wine, I was shaking so badly that I ran out of there as fast as I could. I was so disappointed in myself for going down to her level that it haunted me for months, and now I have to relive it all over again. I did send Jeana a text telling her that I was sorry for throwing the wine in her face and will pay for any damages. As I walked away things got even crazier. Jeana threw wine on Michelle, and Michelle pushed Jeana into the bar. I think about five glasses got thrown that night.
I had to laugh when Jeana walked home and was totally fine calling me all kinds of names, but as soon as she got on the phone she started fake crying to Simon. It almost makes me wonder if she is trying to hook up with Simon like everyone is telling me?
The letter did stop Jeana from talking about my divorce and my children to the media. However, she has now taken to social media claiming me and Eddie were yelling racial slurs and gay bashing her friend Ben, which is a total lie. First off, half our friends are gay, and why would race play a part of anything? This 55-year-old woman has nothing better to do?
Then in the other corner of the party Alexis and Peggy are fighting over whose lips are bigger. Well, we all know that was not what they were truly fighting about. Obviously there is way more to their history than we all know. Only they know if their friendship is worth saving.
It was nice that all the girls came to me to see if I was okay, but of course Gretchen had to compare my situation with Jeana to ours. That is like comparing oranges to apples. We all know the nature of this show is to sit in the interview chair and answer questions about our cast members. Gretchen accused me of dating Simon's best friend and being a bad mom this season. I really don't care what she thinks or says about me to be honest. She has taken up talking about me on and off camera like a new career. There is a reason I kept me kids off the show this season, and that was to not have them be a part of this circus. I knew my divorce was going to be a big part of my story line. So when Jeana brought attention to my divorce and my kids, I was furious. For goodness sake, she is not even on the show anymore! I can't take back how I reacted to Jeana, but what I can do is learn from this mistake. I will never allow my anger to bring me down to some else's level. I am learning to think before I react while upset. It is something that I have always had an issue with.