I am definitely noticing this season that I'm a little inattentive, and I know it's because my plate is a little too full for me to handle everything I'm taking on. I think now I have learned how to handle it all. However, during these earlier episodes, I am definitely struggling with being frantic, overworked, and sleep-deprived.
When I scheduled my appointment with Dr. Niccole, I did not anticipate the anxiety I would have going to the appointment. Jim asked me if I wanted him to come with me, and I said no. However, once outside the office, I become a nervous wreck. I think it's because I knew this is a surgery I needed to have, yet at the same time I really didn't want to do it. Last year when the season ended and I had time to take care of myself, I decided to figure out why I was having chronic sinus infections. I was using nose sprays like they were tissues, and I was constantly getting colds that were leading to sinusitis. Ready to put an end to all of that, I scheduled an appointment with Dr. Chironis, an ENT (ear, nose, and throat specialist) in Newport Beach. He immediately sent me for a CAT scan. Once we determined I needed surgery to fix all the issues I was suffering from, I decided to visit Dr. Niccole to discuss also removing the bump on my nose during the same surgery. In doing this, I discovered Dr. Niccole is also an ENT, and could do the entire surgery himself. However, I never expected to be so nervous following through with this surgery.
I definitely needed some girl time after that doctor appointment, so I was glad Gretchen could meet me for coffee. I have to be honest though, hearing Gretchen say behind my back that my surgery is not just a medical thing upsets me. I can recollect the time last year when both of us went together to a consultation with Dr. Niccole to discuss removing the bumps on both of our noses. If I really wanted to fix only the bump, I would have booked a surgery after that consult! However, the thought of letting a knife cut my nose freaked me out TOO much! I've had that darn bump since I was six years old, so I've had plenty of time to fix it, if that alone was my concern. It wasn't until I got tired of not breathing properly that I finally decided to tackle the issue. If it weren't for the sinus issues, I wouldn't have removed the bump, and that's the truth!