New Balance

Heather Dubrow tries to find a way to kickstart her acting career again.

Well! I thought this was a really fun episode! Lots of action and interesting relationship dynamics!

First things first.... My first audition back! It was so hard, so stressful. The baby has a fever. I know she is in good hands, but I hate to leave her like that! This is exactly why my career has taken a backseat to my children. I always want to be there for them! Thankfully, I have my amazing assistant Natalie to drive me, so we can drive in the carpool lane! I should be home before the baby wakes up from her nap and in time to pick up the other kids from school! I am so grateful that I have the choice to be home with my kids. I know there are many people that have to go to work. I miss my career though and I'm hoping this is the first step in my journey to figure out how to be able to work and satisfy that creative part of me -- but not miss my children. Anyone else out there understand this situation? Tweet to me @heatherdubrow or Facebook me. I would love to hear how you all deal with the work/home dilemma.

Speaking of home... Terry and Nicky playing pool was sooooo cute! I love my men!!! Terry and I have such a strong partnership. I can share anything with him. He always listens and gives me his honest opinion. We are a team and make decisions based on the good of our family and what makes the other one happy. I am so grateful for all that I have -- Terry is so supportive! I am a lucky girl!

On the flip side...

I found Jim to be so negative. Poor Alexis seems like a child asking for permission to pursue a dream. She looked sad sitting behind that big desk waiting for Jim to lay down the law. It's the polar opposite of our relationship. I hope Jim was paying attention.On to VEGAS!!!

Terry and I are sooo excited for Gretchen. Her rehearsal sounded good! I know she is nervous, but she will do great!

OMG -- the PCD director is hilarious!  He needs his own show! "Diva, Diva, Beyoncé..." too funny!

OMG! Poor Alexis and her makeup! She told us the story when she got to dinner -- but man -- it didn't even start to do it justice! I felt so bad for the makeup artist - she was probably nervous.  Thankfully, Alexis is a pretty girl and fixed herself up quickly!

Dinner I thought went well. Everyone seemed to get along.

The banter about fertility was funny. Btw, you all know I'm not a fan of bedroom talk in public. However, this wasn't "sex" talk -- it's seeing the funny in a stressful situation. Infertility is difficult, depressing, and exhausting. We were lucky enough to get some wonderful children through the process. The fact that we could keep our sense of humor through it was a great thing!

Finally,

I'd like to say I'm tired of Alexis saying I am picking on her. The nature of this show is to say what you are thinking and how you feel about the other ladies . It's what is expected. Everyone on the show does this. When we first met , Aleixs didn't know me at all and yet she trashed me. She called me pretentious , made fun of my career, and the fact that I have a brain. This is catty and not empowering of women at all. I am now reacting to all of that. Yes, I agree, calling her dumb was not very kind. Very childish on my part. Although she does hang herself out there for it, I am sorry for those kinds of remarks. My personality is I call it like I see it. The moment anyone calls Alexis out on her behavior, she plays victim. I have said from the start that I am trying to figure her out -- she can be sweet and fun, and then she says other things and acts in a way I don't condone. It's phony. All of the ladies see it and are commenting on it as well. At some point, if everyone says you are dead, LIE DOWN!

OK, enough of that rant.... Vegas was really fun and I hope you are enjoying the trip! See you next week!

Follow me on twitter @heatherdubrow

Like me on Facebook

Visit my website heatherdubrow.com

You May Also Like...

Recommended by Zergnet