Vicki Gunvalson

Vicki shares how hard this season has been -- and why she's so surprised by Tamra's turn.

on Jul 11, 2012

Taping the reunion show is somewhat similar to being on the defense stand for a murder trial. It's one of the most grueling days we endure, when wrapping up a season. It's a chance for all of us to say to one another our viewpoints from the past season of filming. This first part of the reunion went fairly well for me but the second part I don't think is going to be as forgiving.

As a human, we all make mistakes and if we learn from those mistakes and continue to make better choices in life -- then it was worth it. I admit I've made mistakes, said some things I shouldn't have, and have attempted to move past them. However, as I said on this episode -- it's like continuing throwing them up over and over again. Frustrating!

There isn't one of us that sat on that couch that goes untouched on the reunion episodes. One way or another, we got "called out" on actions, words, or things we did to hurt one another. I don't believe any of us have ill intent towards each other, however we necessarily don't agree or even like each other at times, which can make things uncomfortable.

Tamra and I obviously are not in a good place. Other than her not accepting Brooks, I really don't know how or why she decided to do what she did this year to our friendship. We had a strong bond, and I felt that no one or nothing would have ever come between us. We had too much history with each other, and too much genuine care for one another to let things get as bad as they did.