Cast Blog: #RHOC

Alexis Can't Trust Gretchen

Tamra: Lizzie's Obsessed With Me

Shannon Settles the Score

Lizzie: Tamra Doesn't Fight Fair

Heather: Why Hate?

RHOC Reunion GIFs: The Gloves Come Off

Lizzie on That Kentucky Fried Nickname

Shannon on Heather's Double Standard

RHOC Reunion GIFs: Psychics, Opinions, and Shade

Heather Weighs in on the Dinner Party

The Difference Between Shannon and Heather

Lizzie Forgives Tamra

Vicki Wants the Best for Tamra

GIF Recap: RHOC Season 9 Finale

Vicki: I'm Tired of Tamra Causing Problems

Recap: 13 GIF-able Life Lessons from Bali

Tamra: Lizzie Is the Worst Kind of Person

Lizzie: Tamra Has it Out for Me

Shannon: There's No Hope Tamra and I

Tamra: Lizzie's Out for Blood

Heather: Can't Friends Disagree

Lizzie: What Tamra's Doing Isn't Right

GIF Recap: Kayaks, Crowns, and Elephants

Shannon Was Shocked Tamra Would Betray Her

Tamra: I Was a Fool to Defend Vicki

Heather: Newsflash It's Not All My Fault

Vicki's Warning to Lizzie

Shannon Isn't Putting Emotions onto Tamra

Lizzie: I Thought Tamra Was My Friend

GIF Recap: Lizzie's Lonely Birthday Dance

Tamra: I'm Going to Be a Tam-ma!

Vicki: This Episode Was Hard to Watch

Heather: I Did Owe Shannon an Apology

Shannon: Tamra Is Stirring the Pot

Lizzie: Tamra Is Stirring Up Sh--

GIF Recap: What Does Tamra Remember?

Vicki Is Trying to Stay Neutral

Shannon: Tamra's Lies Are Mind Boggling

GIF Recap: Lizzie's Dinner Party Disaster

Vicki Advises Shannon to Keep Communication Lines Open

Lizzie: "I Take Sun Kitten Swimwear Very Seriously"

Alexis Can't Trust Gretchen

Alexis dishes on her relationships with Lydia and Gretchen are now, and what she thinks of Tamra's accusations.

To the couches we all go. . .

This is never a fun time for any of us. We dread it like we would a root canal. Yet, it's inevitable.

There is so much that happened on this first reunion episode, but I'm only going to address the two topics that involved me, which are Gretchen and Lydia.

Weeks ago, when Gretchen and I met for lunch, I blogged about my feelings on our relationship, and I don't want to re-hash that, so you can read that blog for details. To summarize, going into the reunion I felt (and still do feel) that our friendship will not recover. Can I move on? Yes, and I can also be cordial in a group setting as I have no ill will towards her. I just can't trust her. Plain and simple. I understand what our friendship was, I am fine with how it has ended and I truly wish only the best for her.

I also understand Tamra and Vicki's frustration. It was so hard to see Gretchen deny that anything happened when Vicki and Tamra presented so much evidence to the contrary.

Onto Lydia and I. Lydia is my true friend. I guess the only problem I have is that I felt she was my true friend from the very beginning, and she doesn't feel the same. That's where the confusion comes in.

Before Lydia was even on the show, we were hanging out together with husbands, doing play dates, working out together. . .AND having long phone conversations about her coming onto the show. To me, we had an authentic friendship, we knew each other very well, and I felt a loyalty to her. With that said, I told her I never expected her to fight my battles with these women. And I meant it.

However, that doesn't mean I wanted a wishy-washy friend either. If you are my friend, then you are my friend, period. When I watched the scene when Lydia met with Heather at her house, I already felt our friendship was authentic and I thought Lydia reciprocated. So to hear her say to Heather that she didn't know me that well once Heather frowned about me, I was crushed. And confused. The next few episodes also hurt. I felt Heather confirmed my feeling when she told her that she didn't feel Lydia acted as if we had hung out on several occasions. However, Lydia and I have discussed it, we have both shared our sides to it, and we have moved on. That's what friends do: discuss and move on.

Hold on tight, because this is only Part 1 of 3. I'm sure we are in for an emotional ride.

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XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO,
Alexis

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