I want to begin by once again reminding everyone that the events of this episode happened seven months ago, and many things have changed since then. It's really hard to recap something that occurred so long ago without being influenced by the way I feel today.
Starting off, I understand that everyone handles stressful situations differently, but not having Vicki or Lydia help defend me really hurt. So when Lydia came out to check on me, it was a huge relief. I needed to know that she cared. It's awkward to be leaving a party while your friends who rode with you are staying at the party,
However, I didn't want to tell Lydia she needed to leave with me. I wanted her to decide what the right thing to do was on her own. The fact that Lydia and Vicki both chose to leave the party with me meant the world to me. It definitely showed their compassion and character.
Going back to the moment when I was sitting alone in the limo, my emotions took over as I began to grasp what had just happened. Tamra kicking me out of the party was beyond my wildest imagination. I was glad Vicki and Lydia came out to the limo to check on me, but I was also ready to leave immediately. When the conversation between Lydia and I escalated, it is fair to say I was already emotional from what transpired inside. Lydia is entitled to her own opinion, but she hasn't walked in my shoes with these women. She doesn't know what I have experienced or how I've been treated. She claims that I know what I'm getting myself into.