Cast Blog: #RHOC

I Won't Take Heather, Gretchen, and Tamra

Tamra: Lizzie's Obsessed With Me

Shannon Settles the Score

Lizzie: Tamra Doesn't Fight Fair

Heather: Why Hate?

RHOC Reunion GIFs: The Gloves Come Off

Lizzie on That Kentucky Fried Nickname

Shannon on Heather's Double Standard

RHOC Reunion GIFs: Psychics, Opinions, and Shade

Heather Weighs in on the Dinner Party

The Difference Between Shannon and Heather

Lizzie Forgives Tamra

Vicki Wants the Best for Tamra

GIF Recap: RHOC Season 9 Finale

Vicki: I'm Tired of Tamra Causing Problems

Recap: 13 GIF-able Life Lessons from Bali

Tamra: Lizzie Is the Worst Kind of Person

Lizzie: Tamra Has it Out for Me

Shannon: There's No Hope Tamra and I

Tamra: Lizzie's Out for Blood

Heather: Can't Friends Disagree

Lizzie: What Tamra's Doing Isn't Right

GIF Recap: Kayaks, Crowns, and Elephants

Shannon Was Shocked Tamra Would Betray Her

Tamra: I Was a Fool to Defend Vicki

Heather: Newsflash It's Not All My Fault

Vicki's Warning to Lizzie

Shannon Isn't Putting Emotions onto Tamra

Lizzie: I Thought Tamra Was My Friend

GIF Recap: Lizzie's Lonely Birthday Dance

Tamra: I'm Going to Be a Tam-ma!

Vicki: This Episode Was Hard to Watch

Heather: I Did Owe Shannon an Apology

Shannon: Tamra Is Stirring the Pot

Lizzie: Tamra Is Stirring Up Sh--

GIF Recap: What Does Tamra Remember?

Vicki Is Trying to Stay Neutral

Shannon: Tamra's Lies Are Mind Boggling

GIF Recap: Lizzie's Dinner Party Disaster

Vicki Advises Shannon to Keep Communication Lines Open

Lizzie: "I Take Sun Kitten Swimwear Very Seriously"

I Won't Take Heather, Gretchen, and Tamra

Alexis explains she came to Tamra's party and came back this season to teach her kids a lesson about bullies.

This is going to be a really tough blog to write for two reasons. One being the obvious, which is it's never easy to watch something replay after you have already worked through those emotions. The second reason being that this was filmed seven months ago, and some of the women and I are in a better place now. Yet I must address how I felt back then.

Before I begin my blog I have to say Jim and I have been praying for Grayson (Slade's son) since we met them both. Grayson is the strongest little guy and he is here to teach each of us something. We know this has been a struggle for them and above all, family and health are everything and we are praying for Grayson, Slade, and Gretchen.

At the beginning of the show we see Heather at the radio station, and I thought she did extremely well. She seemed really comfortable and she had a great radio voice. I was shocked and sad to hear about her experience as a young girl being bullied. It really brought up a lot of raw emotions. It’s ironic that someone who was picked on as a child and seems so well versed in it doesn't realize the parallel of her teaming up with the other girls.

Bullying is not a topic I take lightly. It's not a word I just tossed out there because it was convenient. It is truly how I have felt. Just because I have a job, or make a paycheck, does not mean I am suppose to take horrible treatment and do nothing about it. I do not approve of bullying in an office anymore than in a lunchroom, anymore than on a playground. Let me be clear about this, bullying comes in MANY different ways, MANY different degrees, in ALL ages, and it can be verbal or physical.

On that note, I would never want to detract from all of the unfathomable pain that some children (or teens or adults) have suffered from. Bullying is a very serious and very controversial topic, and I am sensitive to that. My heart goes out to all the children, moms, dads, friends, or families that have suffered from it. I am the first to admit I was never hit and never had things thrown at me, however I know what I have experienced. Last year is in the past, so I do not want to even discuss that anymore, but the night of Tamra's party was unbelievable, and it felt like I was being attacked. Let me tell my side of the story from that night.

First off, the night Vicki asked me to go to Tamra's party it took her over 45 minutes to convince me to go. Tamra had spread horrible rumors about Jim and I. The rumors and hateful gossip had gotten so bad that Jim and I pursued our legal rights and realized we had a case in the matter, but Tamra shut up once I made this known (read my past blogs for details). So I felt Tamra was extending the olive branch when she said I could come to her party. The clincher for why I said yes to going to the party was that during our conversation Vicki looked at me with tears in her eyes and said she felt like she was on a desert island the night at Heather's clambake. Vicki said she felt isolated. That struck a cord with me because that was how I felt last year. So, I put her feelings ahead of my better judgement and I said I would go. If I can do anything to prevent someone else from experiencing a terrible feeling like that, I will do it. My gut told me no, but my heart told me yes and I followed my heart. I was going to support Vicki and I was proud of Tamra's new business.

Obviously, I was wrong. After seeing it all play out, yes, I was stupid, capital S-T-U-P-I-D. Also after watching it all play out, I had a few red flags for Tamra's true intentions. When Tamra was talking with Eddie while getting ready for the party, she was very mad that she had said yes to Vicki and felt she was put on the spot. Yet, she still said yes to Vicki a SECOND time when Vicki texted her. Hmmm, for some reason I don't feel Tamra is the kind of person to say yes when she means no, especially not twice. Another red flag is that Tamra said she plans to ask me "what the f--- I'm doing there." Why? That's starting the nonsense she asked me not to bring.

Fast forward to arriving at the party. At first, it seems it's going to be a smooth night. Tamra accepts my gift, and even takes me on a tour of her plans for the gym. Phew, it's all good! For a moment.

Then we all sit around the couches and the awkward silence begins, topped with several under-the-breath comments. I'm wishing I could leave, yet I know that I am in a no-win situation no matter what I do. So when dinner begins, I'm simply trying to be the quietest, non-person there. Vicki thanking Tamra for allowing me to come is both uncomfortable and strange, and it sends the night into a tailspin. I try several times to diffuse the situation, and all I want to do at this point is run away. It shocks me that Gretchen pounces on me within six seconds of Tamra and I arguing. It shouldn't have surprised me, especially since before the party she said I am "asking for it" by going back and sitting at the bully's lunch table. She called herself that name in that moment, not me. Well, if the shoe fits. . .

Then Heather jumps in when I'm already trying to diffuse Tamra and Gretchen. Now looking back I should have walked out. But I was in defense mode. I realized I became numb to Gretchen several months ago, but it really opened my eyes to how cold her heart truly is when she clapped as I was being thrown out of the party. That moment was so surreal for me. Tamra, Gretchen, and Heather are all screaming at me. I am scared Tamra is going to hit me when she walks over to my chair, and then my ex-friend is clapping while I'm getting thrown out of the party. I was crushed. I felt like I was at that lunchroom table at that moment. I was humiliated, yet so relieved to get out of that environment. Get me away from the line of fire. I was emotionally and mentally prepared to be there for Vicki that night and stand by her until the end, but honestly I was glad to leave early.

Please know that I am not a victim here. Through this experience, I am stronger than ever. God allows us to go through certain situations in our life to build character and make us stronger, and that is exactly what has happened to me. But my lesson was for my kids. I'm not going to let anything deter me from my dreams. That's why I came back this year. I'm happy to take anyone on one-on-one, but I will never take three-on-one. Being bullied, teamed up on, ganged up, attacked, outnumbered, it's all semantics. It's unacceptable.

If you or anyone you know is being bullied, tell someone, get help, reach out. There are people out there that can help you. You are not alone.

Until next week,
Alexis

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Lizzie: Tamra Doesn't Fight Fair

Lizzie thinks Tamra's comments about her children were meant to deflect from her own problems.

Happy Labor Day!!! I am going to make this blog short and sweet. It’s a holiday and I am going to be spending the day with family in Newport wearing a Sun Kitten and a smile. I hope you all are having a great holiday weekend.

To be honest, the second half of the Reunion was hard to watch. I think it got too ugly. I am not going to insult any of your intelligence in explaining this episode. We all know that misery loves company, and "projection" is as easy to spot as a $2 dollar bill. It doesn’t take a rocket scientist to see that everything miserable that comes out of Tamra's mouth is a direct reflection of what is going on in her life. In my opinion, children are off limits. It's quite apparent that Tamra does not fight fair and when all else fails she will throw your kids, marriage, and even your body under the bus in an attempt to hurt you. We filmed the reunion for over 10 hours and after listening to so much ugliness my heart just couldn't take it anymore.

I do not regret telling Shannon all the things that Tamra said about her. Everything I shared with Shannon was something that happened and was said on camera. I didn't take anything and create unnecessary drama. I would do it again in a heartbeat and I would think my friends would do the same for me. I simply did not know the truth about Tamra. Danielle told me all the things Tamra said about me. That is why after my birthday I was so hurt by her. It's hard for viewers to understand because these things weren't in the show. She could have called me and said she wasn't coming. I called her after sitting on the bus for over an hour. The next day she made fun of me to Danielle, in addition to asking plenty of questions looking for negative details regarding my party.

On that one-year free membership to Cut Fitness: Let's delve into this shall we? I was the one that contacted Tamra days after my party. She did not contact me to give me present. I had invited Tamra, Eddie, Danielle, Joe, Heather, and Terry to the Kentucky Derby and Tamra was the only person that had not sent in the RSVP. It was past the deadline and it was getting borderline rude at this point. Tamra, in fact, was making fun of the Kentucky Derby and the charity event that would be hosting us to Danielle. So, I reached out to Tamra regarding the Kentucky Derby and she texted me back saying, "I want to give you a free membership to CUT for your birthday." Tamra knows I am already a member to a sports club and that was the last I heard of this "free membership." I never received any kind of certificate or card for membership. I suppose she thought I would have the gall to show up and say, "I got a text message from Tamra for a free membership!" It's almost laughable. Needless to say, I don't go to her gym and she didn't attend the Kentucky Derby with me.

There is nothing else to say regarding the Shag, Marry, Kill game that I haven't already discussed in great length in any of my previous blogs. I said the word "marry" and that's that. Tamra even glared at me on the way out of the Valentine's Party and repeated it. "Marry you?" Tamra has said multiple times she couldn't even remember because she drank too much and there are even text messages where she says it too. Her story changes continually, like the words that come out both sides of her mouth.

During the Reunion, Tamra said many more hurtful things that you didn't see. She went on to talk about my son Preston and my marriage. We all remember the episode in the park where Preston hit me on the head with his elephant. He was asleep in the car and he had a mini temper tantrum. He was three -- it happens. I would assume most mothers have had it happen at some point. In addition, my husband and I got in a fight on my birthday. I feel awful about it, yet it made us closer. I just wanted what every woman wants -- to feel special because of her man. I am a big time believer in learning from your mistakes and that won't ever happen again. However none of those incidents had anything to do with Tamra. But on her quest to hurt everyone, she managed to drag in some irrelevant topics. I know it's all to deflect from what's going on in her life and to make someone else look bad. . .but it does hurt nonetheless. My babies and my marriage are my life so I guess her goal was to attack the things closest to my heart because she can't fight fair.

I hope you enjoyed this season and I hope you had a fabulous summer!!! The fall is my absolute favorite time of year, so I say bring on football and cooler weather.

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