You should look back at your behavior at the reunion show. It's disgusting. I think your behavior and anger also stems from the fact that your first longtime boyfriend who was also on this show left you cold when he went to college, your mom's divorces and I don't know what else. This is why you can't see the true ryan and afraid he's gonna leave you too. That is prob why you had to rush and get married and have 'his' child. You have issues with guys leaving and has made you insecure. Open your eyes. It's ok to say your husband is wrong sometimes. It doesn't mean you love him any less. Just don't be so blind and stupid. Did you look at how ugly you came off on the reunion?! So angry. Now that's not healthy for your baby and I thought you wanted to provide a good environment for baby troy. And while you're staying home, why don't you lose some weight? Look at yourself at the reunion. Esp when you were so angry and all that fat on your neck was all bulging out. Put energy into looking good for your angry hubby and baby troy.