Gretchen Rossi

Gretchen responds to her and Slade's critics and wonders why Alexis lets Lydia speak so freely.

on May 7, 2013

Since I didn't get to spend a lot of time with Lydia this season due to Grayson's situation, I found out some insightful things about Lydia in this episode. I thought it was interesting that Lydia herself admitted that she is judgmental and that her mom concurred, because I actually felt very pre-judged by Lydia most of the season and I think that might have been part of the reason we didn’t really connect. I have a hard time with that, however later on this season Lydia and I talk about this issue.

I also found Lydia's conversation with Tamra and Heather about Alexis very validating in a way. It made me feel like when I was friends with her that I wasn’t crazy for feeling the way I did about some of her actions and how they seemed very contradictory at times. I realize now that I didn't even know how to address it with Alexis because she always would get defensive and never wanted to hear something negative about herself, even if it was meant to help her just like Lydia describes in her interview. I tried to tell her on the plane ride over to Costa Rica about some of her actions but it went over her head and then when I explained at the table in Costa Rica the same sentiments, she completely turned on me and said I was a bully and a horrible friend. Kind of like Jim and Alexis both said tonight in this episode, how many times are you going to keep going back for a beating and going to turn the other check? I just finally had to say enough was enough, because being friends with her became draining, confusing, and exhausting. I hate that I felt that way but I did, and Lydia seeing it only a few months into hanging out with her made me feel like I wasn't crazy for feeling this way.