So. . .if you have anything negative to say about it -- please do me a favor and refrain. I agree with you that I looked BAD! The fortunate part is now that it's been six months since the surgery, I have full movement of my face and mouth and most people say that I look just "refreshed," and can't really tell that anything was done surgically. Phew! Thank God.
The "Radio Slade" segment was a joke. Slade's sole purpose of being on the radio was to bash the Housewives and, for that matter, anyone else he felt compelled. He thought it was funny.I thought it was disgusting. For him even to comment on my looks at the party was very wrong. He wasn't even there, and it's obvious Gretchen came home and told him I had surgery. I guess Slade isn't happy unless he's making fun of a person's looks. Since when did he become so perfect? Stay tuned for more of Slade's wonderful comments on the other women as well. It's not just me. He simply thinks that by making fun of women is a "normal" thing to do. I, on the other hand, find it classless and rude.
I don't know of anyone that can deny the fact that when life is tough it's tough. You try and put a "poker face" on to show your friends everything is fine -- however they can usually see right through it. For the past year or so, Brooks and I have had a ton of outside pressures that simply we didn't know how to handle and we went through times where we were not seeing each other or talking one another. That didn't mean we didn't care for each other, we just decided it would be best to cool it for awhile. What that meant was we were not in communication daily and I didn't bring him around the group. I was focused on getting myself healed from the inside out. I was taking time for myself and he was taking time for himself. I'm sorry if people didn't understand it, it was what we felt needed to be done. The truth of the matter is I cared for him a lot, loved him but we both were tired of all the negativity. I was tired of everyone telling me what I should do instead of me making the decision myself. Brooks is an amazing man, a caring man, and he became my best friend. We realized if we had ANY chance at all of making our relationship work, we needed to not only take a break, but also to be private and not to discuss our relationship with anyone.
I don't know if any of you have been in that place before, but it's really tough. I am 51 years old, and I know what's good for me and what isn't. I don't need anyone watching out for me. I will be the one who makes the final decision on my future. . .and God.