Aloha from Hawaii! I am so happy that you finally get to see what is the beginning of a turning point in my marriage! What starts out to be a tough episode ends with hope for healing in my marriage and I am truly grateful for that!
I probably had one of the most emotional weeks of my life after David sent me the infamous email. Typically I am a pretty strong and secure person, but you can see that I have become insecure, especially about my marriage. Brooks had some great advice at dinner by saying to forget the past because I have to focus on my future and my marriage.
Going dancing at Andeles was exactly the right prescription for David and I. As much as I love for David to be "fun David," David also loves it when I am fun. I can be quite crazy and have danced on my fair share of stages and tables when I have been out with David or friends. I'm glad you get to see that. What I am not so proud of, however, are my not-so-pretty dance moves. Yikes!
I grew up with horses and rode all of time so I couldn't believe that I was a little nervous to get on a horse again! David and I were surprised that Vicki had set a special lunch for us because we had a late one the night before and wanted to take a little nap! It was incredibly thoughtful that she set everything up and as you see, we opened up quite a bit and had a very honest and raw conversation about our relationship and our future. It is not fun to watch my marriage played back when we were in a rough spot. But if we can learn from it (and we both have), then the good outweighs the bad!I don't like that I have been complaining to my husband about spending time with me. I feel as though we are roommates and I want so much more. David tells me that he is tired of hearing that I want more time with him. If I didn't point it out, nothing changed, so I thought if I kept reminding him, he would finally respond. As you heard, my complaining only made him withdraw more.
It was hard to hear that David was not happy. We both want the same things -- to feel loved by our spouse -- yet somehow we have not been achieving that goal at all. David is right, that with forgiveness, we can heal our marriage and we are doing it better and better each day. We need to communicate differently and today we are doing it in a more open and honest manner.
I am grateful for Vicki's friendship and time we spent together in Puerto Vallarta. I was able to see how happy she is when she spends time with Brooks and I will continue to be supportive of my friend's relationship and her choices.
It made me sad to hear that Vicki has had her own trust issues with Tamra. David was quite disappointed with Tamra's betrayal because he was becoming very close to Tamra and Eddie as well. It was frustrating to see Tamra again try to explain away what she did. The bottom line is that there is no valid excuse for betraying my trust, especially to Heather.
I am excited that you will be able to get a glimpse into David and I working on and improving our relationship in the coming episodes. We are in Hawaii now for nine days BY OURSELVES so we have been off to a good start! Aloha! XO