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Mandy hopes she has what it takes to get through Jackie's rigorous program.

Sep 2, 2010

I am excited to start the program and meet Jackie. I'm a bit nervous to meet everyone though, since I am way out of my comfort zone. I usually hang out with my family or friends that I have known for years, so this is all new to me.  

The workouts are insane, and I'm thinking I signed up for something that I may not be able to handle. The first day out, I'm hanging over the bicycle and I can't even lift my head as I pedal. I can't catch my breath and there is no warm up, no prep, and no concern that I have never worked out before!

Jackie is at my home and her personality is so strong and demanding. I try to read her eyes to see if she actually cares about me losing weight or if she's just going through the moves.  She raises her voice and tells me that I am poisoning my kids with sugar. I think, "What have I gotten myself into?"  I start to tear up as I have always lived in a protective bubble all of my life, and no one has ever raised their voice at me.

Here I go, a new journey to make me stronger. The food is easy for me to cook, since I love to spend time in the kitchen. The quantity is tough for me to adjust to, and I always find myself accidentally popping leftovers from the kids in my mouth. That has got to stop!

I am trying to stay positive as I know things will get better, they always do for me. Got to trust!