This week has been one of the hardest weeks of my life. People who I thought were my friends and my support turned on me, and it felt like everyone around me had discounted me as a weak addition to the group who was half-assing the workouts. To make matters worse my weight loss this week was less than stellar, which fueled the negative fire from others as well as myself.
I came so close to ending my Thintervention this week because it's hard enough to lose weight, but add my PCOS and the complete lack of support from pretty much everyone else in the group, and you have an almost toxic mix.
The most frustrating thing is that no one really cares about my PCOS or how completely frustrating it is. I worked my ass off this week! I worked out harder then I ever have before in my entire life and it still wasn't enough. To top it off I have to sit through two dinners and discover that the people I had come to care for and support could really care less about me and have no real desire to get to know me.
For 10 years I have been in and out of every doctor's office to try and take care of my PCOS and none of them could give me a straight answer. I was always told, "We just don't know enough about it," and "You have to get this weight off, but having PCOS is going to make that next to impossible." Eating cupcakes and pizza certainly didn't help matters, but that seems to be the only thing that people see with my condition because they would rather mock it than understand it.
I have to say when I first heard that you had PCOS I know this was going to be a hard road for you. I to have it and was unable to lose weight at all no matter what I did or ate until I got my meds worked out. This is a medical condition and I just want you to know that all of us cysters know you are not cheating and support you 100% even if Jackie or the rest of the cast does not. Keep looking for a new doc till you find one that understands you’re PCOS. I would recommend who specializes in female endocrinology. Drop me a line anytime you want to chat. We cysters have to stick together.
You are a fighter! If I had a chance to be on the show, I would want you to be my workout partner. I think you are brave and look like you are putting forth your best effort. The non-supporters are just looking for a source for their own dislike and you seem like the easiest target given that you have PCOS. I hope you you kick @$$ the rest of the season and show them how it is really done. Good work so far, keep it up!
Stacy - my heart went out to you watching last night's episode when you talked about your grandmother. I can't imagine ever being exposed to that, let alone from your own grandmother. Did you ever tell her how it has affected you? Hopefully she sees the error of her ways.
Just keep at it. Any weight loss each week is a success in my opinion. I see you working out and it helps motivate me. If she can do it, I can! You are a sweet girl. Ignore the meanness and just concentrate on you!
Keep up the good work! Don't be afraid to push beyond your limits, you have already done this. Another thing, I'd like to see you confront Nikki calmly about her constant snickering when you take the floor to speak. It's rude and it's clear she is not a team player.
PLEASE stop crying so often. I want to sympathize with you, but your tears turn on an off like a faucet - it is off putting. This journey is difficult, I am sure, but just and keep at it!
Bryan seems to have a lot to offer. Stay calm, true to yourself, and bond with Bryan. He is the most honest one of the bunch. I think you guys could help one another. Plus, he can put a smile on anyone's face. Good luck.
Stacy, I too have PCOS. I am glad you are on the show. Please know that one pound a week is a victory for a PCOSer. It seems like Jackie may not know enough about this condition. But I am just going off of what has been shown on the show. Anyways, I look forward to continuing to watch your progress.