This week has been one of the hardest weeks of my life. People who I thought were my friends and my support turned on me, and it felt like everyone around me had discounted me as a weak addition to the group who was half-assing the workouts. To make matters worse my weight loss this week was less than stellar, which fueled the negative fire from others as well as myself.
I came so close to ending my Thintervention this week because it's hard enough to lose weight, but add my PCOS and the complete lack of support from pretty much everyone else in the group, and you have an almost toxic mix.
The most frustrating thing is that no one really cares about my PCOS or how completely frustrating it is. I worked my ass off this week! I worked out harder then I ever have before in my entire life and it still wasn't enough. To top it off I have to sit through two dinners and discover that the people I had come to care for and support could really care less about me and have no real desire to get to know me.
For 10 years I have been in and out of every doctor's office to try and take care of my PCOS and none of them could give me a straight answer. I was always told, "We just don't know enough about it," and "You have to get this weight off, but having PCOS is going to make that next to impossible." Eating cupcakes and pizza certainly didn't help matters, but that seems to be the only thing that people see with my condition because they would rather mock it than understand it.