Stacy

It seems treadmills bring out Stacy's dark side.

Sep 13, 20100

Did you like my impression of Darth Vader? Pretty spot on right? I had no idea how allergic I was to treadmills; whenever I get on one I break out in embarrassment. Hot mess party of one? Check please! I mean really, I'm 23! I can't even use the excuse, "Well my bangs got in my way..." It's one thing to be out of shape and hide it, it's an entirely different matter when everyone has to drop everything to make sure you haven't accidentally swallowed a lung.

I can't stand it! I can't take it! I feel so ashamed. I feel like if Jackie points out one more time that Shay and I are the most out of shape, not to mention the youngest, I will point out that she is blond and also a lesbian (not that's there's anything wrong with either of those things...).

It's only the second week, and I feel like I am making a horrible impression on my fellow Thinterventioners. I am starting to get the vibe from everyone that I am going to be one of the weaklings, which I am secretly scared of myself. I really have huffed myself into a corner that I can't get out of.

The old me would try and find an excuse of some kind, give into my fears. I can't. I need to be strong and find a way up and out of this to a healthier, skinnier me. Bryan seems to have his stuff together, I'm going to try copy his example...

Wish me luck and a force of some kind that has nothing to do with breathing like a masked villain...

 

5 comments
debjo
debjo

I'm sure you have heard over and over again how beautiful you are. Really such a beautiful face, and it will be there whether or not you are over weight or not. But can't help thinking how really beautiful you'll be when you lose a few pounds. Good Luck!! You can do it.

PCOS DIVA!!!!
PCOS DIVA!!!!

I also have PCOS and I know how hard it is to lose weight. You are a inspiration for women with PCOS If you can do I know a lot of us can do it too.I am rooting for you Stacy you can do it!!!! :)

Viewerinnnj
Viewerinnnj

You can totally do this!! Think of it this way - at your age, your body will want to get healthy quicker than someone my age. So once you do start to build stamina (it really will happen) your body is going to really bounce back into health!

Evilbeaner
Evilbeaner

Thanks for being honest. I feel the same! Please.....keep up all your hard work... I look fwd to seeing it!

Feelingyourpain
Feelingyourpain

I commend you on being so honest! It's hard and scary to have someone so in shape come at you with the world, but it's also great that you found someone in a similar situation to help motivate you! Keep up the great work and don't give up! It will get easier and you will be happy you did it! I loved the scene with you and Shay hanging out in the backyard!