Watching my episode, it still amazes me how many days of shooting we underwent for a one-hour show. Hats off to the Bravo crew for being so thorough and kind. I think the way I was portrayed is fair, as I did feel closed off during the initial days of filming, and was sleep deprived due to twins. But what is not demonstrated to the viewer is that the participant (in this case, me), is sequestered during the entire filming process, and is therefore feeling like an outsider during what is supposed to be a very personal and transformational time. This, they say, is done for the sake of "purity" - to keep the reality aspect REAL. Unfortunately, the effect it had on me was one of frustration and the feeling of being a pup in the pony show, expected to perform with glee when thrown onto the stage. The sequestering process actually made my interactions feel more surreal - it was harder to open up to complete strangers like Tim and Gretta. This added to my resistance. But their role was to enter my closet and advocate change, which they did.

Tim is incredibly polished. He is a huge proponent of living in the now and it was his every intention to bag the bollocks and get to the bulk of what mattered. He was very graceful when it came to getting past the tension. I respect him immensely for being so forgiving and focused on moving the process along, despite our little hiccup!