Tom is generally an extremely laid back guy. He is very non confrontational and always makes light of situations. This is a quality I love about him, but at times it also frustrates me. I think he forgets that I am a very emotional being, and I don't like when he makes light of a situation that has me very upset. I am entitled to feel however I feel about a matter, and for him to not show compassion towards me is very hurtful. It is as if my feelings are irrelevant or don't matter. It is a learning curve for us. I recognize that our relationship isn't perfect, but we work at it and grow together through times like this.
I was extremely upset and angry when we got back to the hotel. All the girls were in high spirits and having fun, and I was like this wet blanket. I was so happy that I made the decision to go skinny dipping. It pulled me out of my funk and being with my best friends was exactly what I needed.
I knew when I saw Schwartz the next day that he was going to try and sweep it under the rug. I was still upset and angry though. He started defending his actions as if it were my fault and that I had caused him to react the way he did. I can account for my contribution to the fight, but ultimately I wanted a sincere apology. I didn't feel he was willing to take any responsibility.
I know how Stassi is about her birthday and I didn't want to be the one who spoiled it. I was certainly still dealing with my feelings and thoughts and had yet to have a conversation with Schwartz. Even though it was Stassi's birthday, I did appreciate the sympathy from her.