Cast Blog: #PUMPRULES

Kristen on Tom and Stassi's Betrayals

Scheana: I Believe Tom

Our Producer Witnessed Kristen Storm Off After Dinner

Jax: That Dinner Was an Absolute Disaster

Lisa: Kristen Got What She Wanted Out of That Dinner

Our Producer Saw the Wedding Through to the Bitter End

Lisa: Is Schwartz For Real?

Scheana: I Looked Like a Super Bridezilla

Scheana: It Ended Up Being a Perfect Night

Katie: Was I Fooling Myself?

Who's Who in Scheana and Shay's Bridal Party?

Our Producer on All the Wedding Day Drama

Jax: Kristen is Manipulative

Lisa: Scheana Looked Beautiful

Scheana: It Was the Best Day of My Life

The 12 Best Reactions to Kristen Getting Fired

Our Producer Caught Everyone's Reactions to the Firing

Lisa: I Don't Totally Believe Schwartz

Tom Schwartz Presents: A Haiku

Scheana: Kristen Deserved to Be Fired a Long Time Ago

Kristen: I Knew My Time At SUR Was Over

Our Producer Had a Front-Row Seat to the Miami Girl Show

Katie: This Is Just Plain Creepy

Tom: What a Train Wreck

Scheana: I Don't Trust Kristen Anymore

Lisa: It Looks a Little Guilty

Kristen: I Made It My Business

Katie: It's Insulting and Frustrating

Tom: Stassi Is Like a Fallen Dictator

Our Producer Shares Secrets From Peter's Date

Stassi: It's Hard to Watch

Lisa: Stassi Likes to Control Everything

Our Producer Got Hit With a Sandwich in Miami

Kristen: I Wanted Validation From Tom

The #PumpRules Miami Trip in 7 GIFs

Scheana: I Shouldn't Have Let Kristen Come

Lisa: Kristen Missed the Point Entirely

Jax: John Takes Care of Everybody

Tom on Jax: There is Barely Any Trust There

Behind-the-Scenes Secrets From Miami

Ariana Takes the Positivity Express

Kristen on Tom and Stassi's Betrayals

Kristen explains how she reacted to the Ariana news and about Stassi's behavior in the wake of the cheating scandal.

As much fun as Cabo was, when Jax decided to spill his truth about Tom and Ariana I felt like I needed a vacation from a vacation. It had been not only months, but years of the rumor circulating. As badly as I wanted to believe Tom and continue to brush it under the rug, my gut was telling me otherwise. I needed to get out of LA and spend time with my family. Everything had been so heavy over the summer. . .I knew I could go back to Michigan and have my mom help me trim the fat and lighten the load.

If Ariana was truly and only Tom's "friend," I felt she would have backed off and respect not only how I was feeling but what we were going through. I wish it had been Tom to be the one to back off and say that to her. At the end of the day, she wasn't my friend and really didn't owe me anything -- he did. But I hoped as a woman she would empathize with me. I knew it was a shot in the dark sending her those text messages but I was over her presence.

When I went back home to Michigan, I really missed Tom. I really wasn't prepared to leave him, as I said I was. I was still holding on to what we had so tightly. I had hoped that we could start over. I was trying to take it day-by-day, and he spent every day that I was gone reassuring me that he loved me, and we would make it out of this on top. That's all I had really wanted from Tom the entire time -- reassurance, honesty, and to feel the love back that I had for him.

I get that Katie and Stassi somewhat knew my relationship, but only Tom and I knew what it was like behind closed doors. All of my emotion over the summer wasn't coming from a place of hatred. On the contrary, it came from a place of intense, passionate love that was darkened by insecurity.

When Tom finally admitted the hookup with Ariana, it was a huge weight lifted off of (I think) both of our shoulders. I had one of two choices: leave him or try to work through it. At that time, I did ask him to try couple's therapy so we could get to the root of the cheating and lying. He wasn't willing but again, after five-and-a-half years of being together, I didn't want to let go. I kept reminding myself of why we started dating and what I loved so much about my best friend that I was blinding myself from all of the damage done.

After all of the s--- talking by Ariana, all of the "Kristen is crazy" for believing the rumors, and her even having the audacity to say I possibly made up the rumor it was like -- FINALLY the truth was out. If she were a good person at all, a simple apology and a few steps back would have been somewhat sufficient and, dare I say, mature. I don't have to sit here and throw anymore stones her way because it's obvious what kind of person she is.

I felt really alone the night at SUR when I confronted Ariana. I can understand why Katie and Stassi were emotionally and mentally drained from dealing with my Tom drama, but to suddenly befriend the girl who my boyfriend had cheated with and give me the cold shoulder? And for Tom to still have her back when I was that upset? I just felt alone.

Watching the episode back, what really blew my mind about Stassi was how she constantly expects everyone of her friends to drop the world for her, but is so quick to throw her friends under the bus. So much shade was thrown my way for talking to Lisa about Ariana working at SUR, but it's acceptable for Stassi to tell Lisa to fire me? My entire summer last year was spent dealing with the Stassi/Jax saga, but when I go through it with Tom -- I'm the a--hole. I couldn't begin to imagine befriending a girl that Jax cheated on her with. A lot of the pot calling the kettle black and Stassi was living in Stassi's world.

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Jax: That Dinner Was an Absolute Disaster

Jax doesn't know what Kristen is trying to achieve. 

How do the SURvers really feel about what goes in (and outside) of the restaurant? Each week we're asking the 'Vanderpump Rules' cast to tell you how they really feels about all the infighting, hookups, drama, and backstabbing. Get a closer look at how the felt about the biggest moments and blow ups by watching the video blog below -- or scroll down to read a full transcription.

Hi, I’m Jax Taylor, and welcome to my video blog.
I do know that there are 365 days in a year. What I was trying to say is 364 you can go f--- up your life and be a mess, but for that one other day, which makes 365, you had to be on your best behavior. That’s what I meant by that. That’s what I meant, Tom.
If Tom Schwartz would’ve came to me and Tom Sandoval and said, “Hey listen, I’m going to do this,” we would have definitely told him not to do it. He has great intentions, but this was a bad move man. A) Don’t give your girlfriend a ring on a string, and B) you don’t do it at a wedding.
I don’t know how many times James has to hear that Kristen is a bad person, that she is going to constantly go behind your back, she’s constantly going to be vindictive, and she’s constantly going to pine over Tom Sandoval. James, you need to wake up, unless you’re happy sharing with Tom. I’m sorry, bud, you just gotta walk away; this is not good for you.
I really feel bad for Rachel, though, because she did not deserve to get punched in the face, but that just goes to show you that when you hang out with Kristen, you get punched in the face. She’s lucky that’s all that happened to her.
That dinner with Kristen was an absolute disaster. I walked into a firing squad with them coming at me. I don’t know what Kristen is trying to get out of this. Even if he did it, it doesn’t matter. He is not going to be with you, Kristen. Wake the f--- up and move on.
I’m Jax Taylor, and this has been my video blog. Thanks for watching.

 
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