Being at SUR the night Jax admitted he slept with Kristen was beyond awkward and confusing. Jax has been known to be King of the Liars so I wasn't too sure he was telling the truth initially -- even though he is sooooo convincing. At first I was like "no way" and then I was like "I think it's true," And THEN we saw the texts and knew it was the truth.
It's super messed up on both ends. Words can't even describe. As much as I haven't been a fan of Kristen this past year, we actually used to be good friends -- prior to me working at SUR. Tom, Kristen, Shay and I had known each other for years just from Tom and I working at Villa Blanca together. However seeing how close her and Stassi were when I started at SUR caused a rift in between us. Kristen used to stick up to Stassi for me all the time and explain to her I was more than just a "homewrecker," which I really appreciated, but the day I started at SUR it began to change. Kristen and I grew apart and I didn't feel like I knew her anymore. At this point I had heard so many stories about Kristen, it didn't shock me that this could be true.
I must say Stassi's plan to confront Kristen was genius and I would've done the same thing. The only thing was, I felt absolutely terrible for blindsiding Tom with this. Schwartz, Shay, and I wanted to tell Tom soooooooo bad what was going to happen that night but we were afraid he might give Kristen a heads' up and she wouldn't show. We didn't want to take that risk so we kept quiet. To this day I still apologize to Tom for being a part of that confrontation. It wasn't fair to him and I will always be sorry for that!
Being there the night of the big confrontation was so uncomfortable. As happy as I was about my recent engagement, I knew what Tom was walking into coming to Beso and I felt terrible. I knew Stassi was going to confront Kristen -- but I never thought it would get physical. Stassi is always so hurtful with her words she doesn't need to use physical violence. I could not believe that went down.
I also wasn't going to ignore Kristen just because "Stassi said so." I don't bow down to Stassi or do as she says, like some of her other friends. I thought at the time that if this all turns out to be true I wouldn't speak to Kristen because she hurt and betrayed Tom. Even though they have done it to each other before and both cheated, this is another level of betrayal when it's your best friend's ex-boyfriend and your boyfriend's best friend. Ugh.
I will add that Lisa was right on calling out Jax for never getting any repercussions for his bad behavior. I don't know how he does it. He's just so easy to forgive! Sometimes it's like staying mad at a puppy! He simply says sorry, calls himself out for being dumb, and all is forgiven. However, Jax saying he had no remorse for he did to Tom was insane. I do think Jax knew what he did was wrong -- but at the same time a simple apology wouldn't make things better. I think for Jax it was easier to turn off his emotions in order to forgive himself.