Scheana Marie

Scheana is sick of people focusing on her "affair" with a married man as she gets ready to twerk down the aisle.

on Feb 3

I was definitely worried about drama going down at my party and I honestly didn't know if Tom and Kristen were even going to show up. Tom is one of my closest friends and I really wanted him there, but no one wanted Kristen there. My mom told me if she showed up I needed to be the bigger person and be nice and I did. As messed up as what she did was, part of me still felt bad for her. If Tom was able to forgive Kristen and work past it then there's no reason I can't do that for him.

When Stassi told me Kristen admitted it I was shocked!!! Not shocked it happened because I already believed that to be true, but shocked that she actually admitted it. I didn't really understand at the time why Tom was coming to Kristen's defense, but to each their own. Even though he's messed up before, too, he knew Kristen couldn't face Stassi alone and I thought that was very noble of him to still have her back. I still told him repeatedly that they needed to break up, but he's a grown man and can do as he pleases.

Seeing Jax have absolutely no remorse for what he did to Tom was astonishing! How can you not feel bad for screwing over your best friend? I think deep down he felt bad, but didn't know how to say sorry so he just pretended like he didn't care. Words aren't sufficient enough to apologize to Tom for what he did so I think he just acted like he didn't feel bad or care at all. I know Jax has a heart, he's just bad at showing emotion.

Coming to the end of the night, the fight was insane! I had a feeling something was going to go down but had no idea it would be that crazy. I got thrown into a table and was so scared that my tooth was going to fall out. If I hit my face on the table instead of my shins my tooth would have been knocked out. It wasn't stable in my mouth at all. My legs were cut and bleeding. I was bruised for weeks on my legs and had knots on my shins. It was really scary. I wasn't upset that it happened at my engagement party, I was upset that it happened so close to my face when I was sitting next to Jax.