Kristen: I Wanted Validation From Tom
Kristen explains her reaction to Tom's tears and why she thinks Ariana is playing the victim.
As dramatic as this episode was, we really did have an amazing time in Miami with late nights spent singing Backstreet Boys songs on the hotel rooftop together while toasting the bride and groom to-be. I won't deny the occasional (and admittedly immature) dirty look or side comment towards Ariana, but we both played it the same way. She says Jax would sleep with "anything" as an attempt to insult me, but yet she’s dating my ex? For someone who’s so above me, she certainly spends a lot of time talking about me. The victim game she was playing with her crocodile tears in the cab blew my mind. Are we watching the same show? She seemed to be doing just fine while dousing herself with chardonnay on the boat the day before. It really bothered me to hear Katie knocking me in order to raise Ariana's spirits. If only she could walk a block in my shoes and Schwartz cheated on her then left for someone else who she was forced to be around, I'm sure she’d be singing a very different tune.
It’s not that I enjoyed seeing Tom cry, but I was glad his hard shell had finally cracked.
I've been aware of the John rumors for many years, and I was texting Tom and Katie across the table when he sat down for dinner to confirm he was ‘the John.’ Now everyone knows why Jason became Jax. Although he didn't admit to anything, he definitely didn't deny it either.
It’s not that I enjoyed seeing Tom cry, but I was glad his hard shell had finally cracked. As for most people, anger is the easiest emotion to portray. When I dated Tom, I didn't have a lot of self worth and was extremely insecure. I wanted validation from him that I wasn't the only one who had a hard time with our breakup. Clearly Tom and I had both been drinking and allowed ourselves to be vulnerable during that conversation. I was hoping for a friendship with Tom post-conversation, but I've come a long way (light years) regarding my feelings about Tom since Miami and will catch you up at the reunion!