Coming back to California was so surreal. I had every intention of leaving Los Angeles, moving to New York, and starting over -- but life happened, as it always does. My boyfriend left Cosmo Radio to follow his dream to work in sports, and got his own radio show "The Wrap with Patrick Meagher" for SiriusXm's Mad Dog Radio. That opportunity required him to move to LA. We both talked about it extensively, and though I was so happy to be in New York, I felt like it was the best decision for him career-wise. Plus, coming back to so many of my friends and my family was comfortable and safe (although there were some people I would rather not run into again).
The most logical step was to reconnect with Lisa Vanderpump, and I was definitely nervous about the meeting because I knew she wasn't very happy with me when I left. I didn't feel like I did anything wrong. Following your dreams is what you are supposed to do, but it was very ironic that following my heart brought me back full circle. Contrary to popular belief, I didn't leave in poor graces, but when you are dealing with someone like Lisa, diverting from her plan is a sin in an of itself. At the end of the day, Lisa was my employer and I did my due diligence in showing her the respect that she deserved. Did I think I was wrong in leaving? No. It was the best choice for my personal life. But when I came back to L.A. I knew I had to show her rightfully deserved courtesy.
I keep getting asked why I didn't attend Scheana's birthday party, and the truth is that I simply wasn't invited. I firmly believe that in life, one deserves to be celebrated not tolerated, so I refuse to surround myself with people who don't support me.
I didn't realize that when my friends, Katie and Tom, so graciously invited me to crash on their couch while looking for an apartment for my boyfriend and me, that I had overstayed my welcome. (Thanks for that shout out, Tom.) As anyone knows, when you move your life across the country, and end up coming back full circle, you still have to rebuild from scratch. I had to start all over again. (What a pain in the ass). From the second I landed at LAX, my mission was to find a new home for Patrick and me.
I went house hunting with Kristina and Katie, and although the primary purpose of that trip was to find a home, somehow it turned into a conversation about my sex life (insert awkward face, haha). I was asked about our sex life (thanks Kristina, love you, xx), and I explained that I had finally found the perfect combination of equal parts lust and love. . .amongst many other things. And though I meant everything I said, it does make me cringe a little, because our relationship is very special to me and I want to protect it by keeping it private. But seriously, ladies, he is the best, you should all get yourselves some of that.
What I can say with certainty is this. . .I was so happy not to be at that staff meeting when Lisa chewed everyone's asses out. It's about time I don't have to be present for one of thooooooose conversations!