OH WAIT -- SO THEN ARE YOU NOT GAY?
Over the years I have chosen to not label myself because there are plenty of others who will. I am happy to not label myself. Even though I come from that business, if one were to look at the plots from the films that I did - I only did 6 - it's art depicting life and life depicting art. My first movie was close to where I was in my own life, and that was being curious about the gay world but having come from a catholic background.
AND WHAT WAS THE NAME OF THAT MOVIE?
"Idol Eyes". I played a straight lifeguard who became curious of gay sex. And every movie since then I was marketed and each movie depicted my own life...
WHO CAME UP WITH THE NAME RYAN IDOL?
It was a collaboration of sorts but I made the final decision. They wanted to call me 'Brian Idol' but I asked if there had ever been a 'Brian Idol' before and they said 'yes' and I said, 'Well, then that rules that out..' I kind of liked the "Idol" part of that, not even knowing at the time what 'Idol' meant. I am half Irish so I said 'take the B away and make it Ryan and I wont be a B star I'll be an A star!'
AND THAT'S JUST WHAT RYAN IDOL BECAME.
Yes and then Marc Anthony disappeared for a long time and I became Ryan Idol, a character that I created.
MANY APPEAR IN ADULT FILMS, BUT ONLY A FEW BECOME SUPERSTARS... WHAT WAS IT ABOUT RYAN IDOL THAT WAS DIFFERENT?
I don't know! It takes different things to be a popular anything in show business. Looks have something to do with it, and the body. Unlike real Hollywood, the penis doesn't come into play except behind the scenes I'm sure. I think charisma and like-ability are important. At my time I was an overnight success before the movie came out because of my vulnerability. I had an 'innocent lost boy' thing. They were putting me up there with (porn legend) Jeff Stryker and I realized there was a phenomenon happening and I rode the wave and it has been a very big wave.
WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE RYAN IDOL MOVIE?
I always like to refer to love as being what rules my life, and the quest for it, so I would have to say "Idol Country". I play a city slicker who goes to the country and falls in love on a farm. And there's some comedy in it too which is kind of interesting.
AND ARE YOU IN LOVE NOW?
I'm focusing on my career right now. I'm 41 and I have that deep desire to have genuine affections for people, whether male or female. Love has different degrees, from genuine affection to the unattainable thing we aspire to of absolute love. It doesn't come often but if you don't have other elements in your life in place you can't have love, so that's why I am focusing on my career. Don't go looking for it, I always say, it will find you when you least expect it.