I know you have all been worried about my relationship, and the show got off to an emotional rocky start, but isn't life like that? Sometimes we cringe, sometimes we get anxiety, but ultimately, we buckle up, hold on, and get to the next place.
I love my husband and my family. Relationships may not have always been my strong point, but I am dedicated to my marriage, to being a better person every day, and to being open and honest in the hopes of helping myself -- and hopefully many of you. This show is about being truthful and giving you a slice of my life during that time period.
This week I celebrate my second wedding anniversary which I am so proud of. I work on being a mother, I work on being a wife, I work on being a good friend and employer, and I work on being a success in business. If all of this comes easy to someone else than more power to them.
Girls Night Dinner: I have really become a girls' girl. Not until my 30s did I realize the beauty and value of going out with the girls, having a cocktail, and really talking honestly about what we go through. I used to think it was campy or silly and now I totally get it. It is exactly what I want my summer daytime talk show on Fox to be. Getting together and really being honest all the while having fun. I'm lucky to have great girls around me who really teach me and inspire me and hopefully who I inspire right back.
The infamous mouth guard scene is actually what really goes down in this silly house. Very often I will look up and Jason will be bent over mooning me with his naked ass. On a different day, I'll enter the kitchen and shake my bra-less rack right back. We're morons and we're very inappropriate. It's who we are. As far as our sex life, we get down to it. When the show filmed, we had a baby just over one-year-old, and I didn't quite have my mojo back. I was recently pregnant, and I assure you that wasn't the immaculate conception. How ridiculous that my sex life is now talk show and cocktail party chatter?
I loved the closet meeting with Andrea and Brooke. I am dying to just have a place to put everything, and I hope and pray that that will eventually happen. I work so hard, I often need to wear different outfits, and I would just not even know what to do if I could actually see my garments. I'm so used to being in small spaces for so long that it seems like a pipe dream. Fortunately, you will all get to see the final product on my show. Believe me I am hustling every day for you to get to see it as much as myself.
I really enjoyed shopping with Mariette. She is a good wingman, equally as opinionated as I am. I can't wait for my vision to become a reality. The idea of being able to actually choose what goes into a home is so foreign to me that it almost feels too good to be true. All of this is a bit surreal to be honest.
As far as the "man cave" is concerned, I just wanted to have a dark little den so we didn't have to watch TV and mess up the main beautiful living room. I wanted Jason to have his oasis. However it seems that making a smaller master, a somewhat larger yet still small closet, and a small man den was illogical. Everyone shopping for that kind of apartment would want a beautiful closet, and we seem to be headed in that direction. I'll believe it when I see it. Maybe dreams can come true. Can you even believe that Andrea from transFORM home (she is the BEST) sided with Jason? She's the closet lady!!! And she was voting for the man cave? Did anyone else pee during the self defense class? My girls have game, and I was wrong that quiet means meek. I wouldn't want to be stuck in an alley with Dawa. She could probably kick my ass!
Dwayne kills me. I need to clarify that when Dwayne said four or five kids he meant that his kids are four and five years old. As far as I'm concerned, everything he says is hilarious.
I can't say good enough things about my shrink. I go places with him that I never have, and although difficult, he really helps me to be a better person, partner, and he maintains my sanity (as scary as that may be).
Roller skating in the new apartment was so much fun. That is truly who I am and the little girl I remember loving being as a child. Once in a while we all want to feel free and youthful, without a care in the world. It's what I love about watching my daughter Bryn. She has only joy and happiness to worry about.