Friday photo shoot with Lee Strickland about drama, sex, fantasy. Freezing cold all day and wearing next to nothing. When you are on a shoot, especially with Lee you don't feel the cold only energy. You need him to capture the essence of what you project. Crazy hair and make-up, red eyebrows, light make up, hair slicked back in a pony tail. Niki came to our trailer later in the day to stop and talk and give us some advice - we also asked her some questions. We saw the house, that night - gorgeous! Three floors, girls on second, boys on third. We all get along so well.... Each of our personalities compliment the other.
Saturday, Tyson woke us up at 7:30am for a go-see. We had thirty minutes to get ready and we met him under the Manhattan Bridge. He had a bonfire going and asked us to throw in something if we wanted to, to symbolize starting over and achieving what we want. It felt so good afterwards to burn my jacket, gloves and scarf. We then went to New York Models, took measurements, Cory thinks my boobs are too big, Niki stuck up for my saying her and Tyra had bigger boobs and there's were wrapped for fashion shows.
Later that night Niki came by the house to tell us about a surprise party for us networking with editors from GQ, she provided us with clothes from French Connection and helped us get dressed. I really appreciate and admire how motherly and passionate she is and of course our girl talks about the business. She makes me want to work out extra to be in her shoes.
Monday, today was a dreadful day. We met with the panel for our first catwalk show, we met at the stage at 11:00am, went into hair and make-up the theme for make-up was "Barbie" all the girls wore two pairs of lashes, heavy liner on top, muted make-up and pale pink lips. When we got there Niki and Tyson, came out, Tyson wearing red speedo which looked fantastic on him.
They said they needed two volunteers, two from each side. We didn't know what we were volunteering for until they dropped the black sheet from over the two mannequins, which were wearing thong bikinis. My outfit was great, a Brazilian bikini (purple) with a black unique necklace already made into it and orange stilettos. Debbie Deetering (runway coach) met us there to practise our walk on the new run way. It was so slippery; it felt like it had just been waxed. We all found green tape to stick to the bottom of our shoes and that made it easier.
When everyone was finally ready, we got in place (I was number 4) and did our catwalk. It felt so good to get back on the run way. It really is the best feeling in the world. An indescribable rush and sense of euphoria. I used to be so self conscious when I was younger and never wanted to take pictures, be on camera or have people looking at me. I never thought I could really want to be a model, and have the stage all to myself but I wouldn't have it any other way!
The boys have gotten better on the walks; we've all been practising together at home. After walking, we all walk back out to stand in front of the judges, for them to ask us each a question and make comments. Jennifer asked me if I would rather be in another industry where I'm "accepted" for my weight measurements.
She asked me about working out and putting all the work into this competition, when I could just choose because it's easier (the easier path). I told her and the panel that I didn't want to take the easier road; I would rather work for what I wanted. Niki said I was a "hard worker". I ended up being in the bottom three, with Sarah and Dominic. Tyson exact words were "I know better people who would rather be here than you." I was so humiliated today. I'm definitely going to upset my family who have to watch this episode because I know its going to hurt them, Sarah and I are not ready to go home - and we won't. Not this week anyway.....