Dear Supermodel gods that be,
We had an amazing time celebrating Ben's and I's Birthday, at the Blue Fin!!! We had an incredible dinner, a lot of laughs, and a wild party. Being that our work schedule has been so hectic it was nice to sit down and enjoy each other's company. I must admit it was extremely difficult not being around family and friends, but at the same time it's not everyday you get the opportunity to celebrate another year in such style. Ben and I have truly become close and I believe its because we share an agrarian spirit and are similar in ways that even surprises us.
My crush aside, Ben is someone I admire and respect, and trust to be one of my closet friends for life. This has been a emotional week for me. It seems I am battling one of what I feel to be my greatest strengths, but at the same time my greatest weakness; I wear my heart on my sleeve. In this business or any business for this matter one need to be able to put personal and emotional feelings aside and it effects the way one works and that is exactly what I failed to do this week, I know what it tastes like to be in the bottom three.
All that aside, I genuinely had an amazing time walking for Scott French in N.Y Fashion week.
Scott is a trendsetter and I felt and I felt like a million in his designs. What an incredible feeling to have as you walk the catwalk. I definitely don't know what I would have done without Clay this week. I cannot say enough about him, as he really is the best of the best. We learned how to box which was hard at first, because I'm not a violent person by nature, but when I got into it he said I was a natural.
What a great way to let go of some steam and relieve some stress. In my heart, I've been working hard and doing my best. My mom shared a poem with me once called the "man in the mirror". And its words never rang more true to my ears that at this moment. At the end of the day, if I cannot proudly look at myself in the mirror and have him show me that same respect -- then I've let my self down.
I only hope that America sees that my ambition is strong, my potential great, and that I deserve another chance to prove that this was simply an off week and nothing more. It is said that actions speak louder than word, but not only can talk the talk , I will walk the walk or should I say catwalk?
Watch what happens...