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Dr. Jackie on Lisa Nicole's "What If" Time

Jackie shares the complex feelings of being diagnosed and what drove her to create her charity 50 Shades of Pink.

By Jacqueline Walters

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Can you imagine being told: "Sorry but you have CANCER"! Well I know exactly how it feels -- not once but twice! You immediately feel like the breath is leaving your body. Your thoughts are racing and your mortality is challenged! I remember I was too shocked to cry! To sum it all up, I immediately envisioned what breast cancer patients looked like to me! After processing all the information and preparing for the fight, I remembered telling myself to go on and get your ugly cry out because "you can't fight with tears in your eyes"!

After all my treatments with surgeries, chemotherapy, and radiation I wanted to help every woman by translating medical fact into practical facts so they understood the journey. I tried to make sure they knew what to expect and why it was happening. I also found that dressing up for chemo and radiation every treatment created such a buzz around the center -- which immediately took my mind off what was ahead! I would immediately get in that chair with smiles and laughter! I looked good, therefore for many reasons I FELT GOOD -- and ultimately I did good!

This is what I wanted for every other woman diagnosed with breast cancer who came in my presence! I would personally purchase them everything I used to help me through my surgeries, chemo, and radiation treatments! This is the origin of "50 Shades of Pink Foundation"(50ShadesofPinkFoundation.org)! This foundation is there to treat the inner and outer beauty of women diagnosed with breast cancer and going through different forms of treatments! We believe if you look good, you will feel good and inevitably do good!

When Lisa Nicole stopped me to chat, I had NOOOOO idea what she wanted to share. Heck I thought her company was writing a big giant check to 50 SOP! I never imagined the words,"I've found a lump" were about to come out of her mouth. I immediately had a million thoughts pop into my head -- some of them too medical to share. I could not only see her fear, but I could feel her pain of "what if." "Oh God my babies" and believe it or not but "not now God,I 've got the WEN conference coming up!" Trying to help a friend during the time of "what if" is so emotionally taxing, not just for her but it takes me to that place when I heard it for the first time! The emotional strain it can cause on one's family can also wreck havoc on a marriage. You can find yourself fighting unnecessarily.

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Sitting with Tonicia is always so rewarding for me, but I ride this emotional roller coaster so much that I am sometimes drained! Watching so many women go through this really complex time in their lives can be both rewarding and hard! Having been robbed of fertility during this time makes it even more complex! I love talking with all my ladies diagnosed and/or being treated with breast cancer.

Now for my good friend, Simone and that "sexy" lingerie, ahhh it's not! I'm so glad that the some of the other girls are trying to help my friend! Maybe we should go together and host a party to beef up her night wear. I enjoy seeing the ladies get alone. It warms my heart. I hate I was on call and had to missed it all. I think we a head in a new direction!

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