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It’s Impossible Not to Cry Along with Sean "Diddy" Combs When He Talks About Losing Kim Porter

Sean Combs opened up about the sudden loss of the mother to three of his children.

By Jenny Berg
Diddy on Losing Soul Mate Kim Porter

For those who knew and loved Kim Porter, the sudden death of the former model back in 2018 was a tough blow. That's especially true for Porter's ex Sean "P. Diddy" Combs, with whom she shared three children. In November, Diddy shared his grief in a heartfelt post that said, in part, "I don’t know what I’m going to do without you baby. I miss you so much." 

And in a recent, very emotional interview with Essence, the rapper once again talked about the painful loss he's endured. "It really, really woke me up ... it turned everything upside-down," he said. "It's the craziest, most traumatic thing I've ever been through."

Describing his relationship with Porter, Diddy said, "There's levels and dimensions to love. And especially love between a man and woman. There's this place that like almost goes beyond friendship. It's where two people actually feel like a level of responsibility to love this person forever, and a total trust. There's not a lot of people you can say you have total trust and you really really know that you can trust them. And it went beyond us being involved intimately or in a traditional type of relationship. It really felt like the pure definition of unconditional love, but it was a little deeper than that." 

When asked if he has any regrets about his relationship with Porter, including not having married her, he said, "I was playing with love [by not marrying Porter]. I definitely took for granted that she would just be with me forever. I took for granted that something like this could happen." 

In the end, Diddy admitted he's still grappling with his new reality. "Anybody that’s lost a mother or lost a soulmate it takes time. It takes time. They say time heals all wounds when it comes to mothers…I don’t think that’s the case," he said. "And that’s not a negative thing, ’cause as people we need wounds … [you] need something to sting you sometimes, forever.”

He added through tears, “I don’t know what I’m gonna do... I’ll figure something out, though. It just hurts so much."

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