For Whitney Port, bullying unfortunately didn't end at snarky comments from fellow staffers at Teen Vogue. The Hills alum, who's a mother to 20-month-old Sonny, recently shared a grim anecdote about the way her fellow moms treated her at an event in Los Angeles.
In an installment of her YouTube Series "I Love My Baby But…" Port spilled the tea on the depressing incident. "I went in with a good attitude, I walked out feeling a little bit insecure,” she explained. “There were a lot of moms that I knew. I approached two specifically… and I got the same reaction from both of them which was, ‘I really cannot be bothered talking to you right now’ and they were trying to back out of the conversation as quickly as they could," she said.
Reflecting on her past, Port revealed, "Ever since I was in middle school, I've always felt like I just wasn't quite cool enough to be in the cool group. I didn't want to be in the cool group, but I wanted to be considered in the cool group, do you know what I mean? I think it's gotten magnified by the fact that... I've been on a reality TV show and I think that a lot of these especially L.A. girls don't think it's cool. I don't know whether they're embarrassed by me, or just think I'm trashy or cheesy or whatever, but this is the vibe that I'm getting... I can physically feel them inching away from me."
She added, "It’s especially hard when you’re a new mother and you really want to put yourself out there because this is the time to make lifelong relationships."
"If I’m not cool enough for them because I was on a reality TV show, then they’re not gonna try to be friends with me or be seen with me,” she said. “It hurts to feel like someone doesn’t want to hang out with you, or have a conversation with you or try to get to know you. Like, I take it personally."
Despite the hurt, Port was willing to change some thought patterns to help her cope with the nasty behavior she saw. "I think I have to be more confident... and stop telling myself this narrative that's maybe not true that I've been telling myself for 20 years,” she said, adding that her narrative is, "You're awkward."
She added, “The problem is that I’m bullying myself… I think I’m worthy of people being nice to me but I can be quiet and awkward... I can’t control the way anybody acts so I think it shouldn’t stop me from putting myself out there. I just have to work on my own self-esteem and focus on the positive qualities about me as opposed to the negative.”
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