Uptown Girl

Things that made me giggle, cringe or just left me confused:

1. Who races a Bentley? Hmm. Nobody that I can think of.

2. I'm not trying to be a model, I'm trying to be an actress. And I'm trying to stop drinking sodas.

3. Kim saying, she doesn't like the word THING. She doesn't like the word THING on anything thing she does. I can totally see how the word THING can be a real pain in the a--!

4. Jump, b----! Do a flip, do something! Now how much fun would that be to see?

5. Do you have your own brain? Yes, and some people actually think I am smart.

6. Do you know what the word pretentious means? Is that a rhetorical question? 

7. Are you wearing red shoes? Both of us wearing red shoes is a sign. Okay...

8. Be her sounding board when I'm at work. I thought this was actually funny.

9. There are a lot of things that annoy Peter, and my talking on the phone A LOT is one of them. Again, did I really say this? It's 2010, please. Even if it was 1957, please.

10. I didn't want to get Cynthia in trouble. Huh? Hilarious. 

Here we go! Peter and NeNe... Let's back up. From the first time I met NeNe, I knew that she and Peter were either going to be best buds or bump heads, because they are both very loud and very outspoken. Two strong personalities. Guess what? They hit it off instantly, even to the point of people insinuating, (and some of y'all straight-up saying) that NeNe was checking for Peter. I have always maintained that NeNe is not that kind of woman, period. Not to mention that I have never doubted Peter's love and devotion to me.

I'm going to try to make a very long story short. This is a very uncomfortable situation for me to be in, and I truly don't wish it on anyone. I love Peter, and I also cherish my new friendship with NeNe. I have gotten to know her well and I consider her my friend. Of course, we have gone through our ups and downs (like real friends do), but we have always to been there for each other when it mattered. Even at the height of my Peter-NeNe drama, I always felt in my heart that if NeNe is a true friend, we will find a way to get through this mess. That's what friends do. 

Back to Peter. At this point in the show, Peter is losing Uptown, which is starting to cause a lot of tension in our relationship. I will not make excuses for Peter, but it is important for you guys to understand that there is so much more to the story than what you get to see. Actually, Gregg (also being an entrepreneur) and NeNe went through the same thing when he lost (or closed) his businesses. The roles reversed, and it was (and I'm sure still is) a huge adjustment for both of them. So I know they can relate, and NeNe and I often talk about this when we can't stay off the phone with each other. 

Back to Peter. Uptown is Peter's business and his source of income. He is a very proud Jamaican, and needs to be the man of the house. Old school, old- fashioned, and very set in his ways. A real man's man, and I can respect that. At this point in the show, I knew things were bad with Uptown, but he was very persistent about trying to keep it going. I tried to be supportive during this time, but it became more and more difficult. I don't want to give too much away, because a lot of these things will unfold in the upcoming episodes. But I will say this: He was very careful to keep me on a need to know basis, because he knew the reality of the situation would cause me much worry and stress. Not to mention, we were in the middle of planning a wedding, which he insisted on taking care of financially. Well, with Uptown potentially closing, this was only the beginning of our problems. How are we going to pay for this wedding, and oh yeah, our bills? By now you may or may not know that we have both invested most of our money into Uptown, trying to keep it afloat in a recession. More on that story to come, stay tuned. That said, Peter is going through his Uptown drama, and NeNe is going through her Gregg drama. I'm trying to be there for him, and I'm trying to be there for her. You get the picture right? 

Now, let's talk about my drama. So much for making a long story short. I am by no means a punk, or a pushover, but I do pick and choose my fights. Peter, NeNe, and I (Gregg and I don't have a problem with each other), are three grown people. And if they want to work this thing out, they will sit down like two adults and work it out. I am not taking sides or being stuck in the middle. Peter is my man, and NeNe is my friend. Period. If they both care about me, they will work it out. The real question is, why am I in this position in the first place? I am friends with NeNe (not Gregg), and NeNe should be friends with me (not Peter). That would end our confusion. 

Now, NeNe and I are two very different women. She deals with Gregg the way she sees fit, and I deal with Peter the way I see fit. I have my own brain (and most people actually think I'm smart) and am far from a puppet. My kindness should never be taken for weakness, and I have no problem speaking my mind, or as we like to say "going in." I am not NeNe, and Peter is not Gregg. They handle their problems their way, and we handle ours our way. 

In closing, as always, I appreciate all the love and support. Follow me on twitter cynthiabailey10, and friend me on Facebook. 

Kisses, 

Cynthia Bailey