Sorry, I’ve been MIA on the blog. I was on a much-needed vacation, but I’m glad to be back!
This episode was a hard one to revisit, because of the whole me-Brandi-Kyle situation. Even though I had just been released from the hospital 48 hours before the gay mixer, I only attended the event to support my sister and had nothing but good intentions when I invited Brandi. Kyle is my sister, and Brandi is my friend, so naturally I was just hoping they could patch things up. As I’ve mentioned before, their feud may seem like it’s all about me, but it is something much deeper and goes way back before this happened with me. We’ve all seen how their relationship progressively has gone downhill throughout the seasons. I mean, you all saw how Kyle and Brandi really started blowing up at each other over personal attacks, not over my situation! I don’t even want to go over in detail what was said… I don’t agree with anything that came out of their mouths that night. I was, and maybe still am, hurt—hurt by Kyle’s words and the dynamic between us three.
I do want to rebuild my relationship with Kyle, but I just don’t know how.
In a way, what I did (inviting Brandi) to the gay mixer is exactly what Eileen did for Kyle and me. Eileen also had good intentions, hoping Kyle and I can talk things out. And for that, I am appreciative for Eileen’s efforts. I can’t imagine what she’s been and currently going through with the loss of two sisters. I do want to rebuild my relationship with Kyle, but I just don’t know how. We’re so close that I think we’re both haunted by our history of ups and downs.
To add fuel to the fire, Lisa R. was going on and on about how she knows all about addicts and how she knows when she meets one, but she is not an expert or a professional, so she shouldn’t be going around judging and stereotyping. I don’t appreciate Lisa R. talking about me in a derogatory way behind my back and about my supposed problems to everyone around us when she doesn’t even really know me or anything about my journey to sobriety. I know what happened on poker night looked bad—even I was shocked when I saw it! However, I have always been open about my sobriety, how I WAS in a bad place, and how I have been and am sober for the past three years. Instead of wanting to curl up into a ball and hide in the midst of all this drama, I feel confident and strong in myself. These rumors and the fighting actually made me realize how much stronger I am today.
During Kyle’s mixer and Brandi and Lisa R.’s lunch, certain phone calls between Brandi and me were brought up. I know exactly which phone calls they were, and, yes, they were concerning, because they were about someone who was in need of help—someone I care deeply about. I was directly involved in a very tough situation that did put me in harm’s way, and that’s why I was distraught when I called Brandi about it. It was NEVER about me or alcohol and drugs. Both Kyle and Brandi knew exactly what those calls were about, so I was extremely upset when Kyle, knowing how private it was, kept on pushing Brandi to talk about the phone calls. With that said, I’m happy to share this person is doing well. This is all I have to share, and I ask everyone to respect this person’s privacy and to not probe any further. Anyway, I hope Brandi doesn’t really feel pressured as one of my friends. She’s been there for me and so have so many other people outside of this group. Shout out to some of my best friends who have supported me through the years…decades— love you: Valerie, Lianne, Monty, Kristi …
Alright, enough of the drama! It was so great to see the sweet moments between Lisa V. and her son Max. I admire Lisa’s strength and how supportive she was of Max’s desire to find out more about his biological family, even though she was anxious about it. I loved seeing the strong mother and son bond. With all the differences the women have on RHOBH, every single one of us has one thing in common—our children are #1 and mean they everything to us.