Kathryn: I'm Sorry if Kyle Doesn't Understand My Feelings

Hello Everyone,

I am very sad to start my blog off with having to say that I lost my nephew a week ago today. His name was Cooper, he had just turned 21 years old. I won't get into all of the details but suffice to say that my family is beyond devastated. What I will share with you is this: Cooper was experimenting with drugs...he died of a drug overdose. No one knew that he was in that dark of a place. We knew that he had been screwing up...not going to school, missing work and not acting responsibly.

His girlfriend of two years had no idea it was this bad, his father (my brother) had no idea. My purpose in sharing this news with you is this: I want everyone who reads my blog to be aware of what's going on around their loved ones, their friends and their social circles. It's not enough to tell someone "to get their act together" or "to figure it out." People who are lost aren't able to see their way out or have the tools to navigate. We have an epidemic in this country. Too many kids are dying from drug overdoses, not enough is being done. You will learn about my younger years this season...I wish I could say that this is the first time that my family has been touched by addiction and tragedy, but it isn't.

I would be wrong if I didn't acknowledge what has so clearly left a mark on me.
Please speak up when you see someone who needs help, you may not get a second chance to do it.

On to this episode...

LVP and Kyle bickering about Faye...I was chuckling when I saw it...two friends arguing about other friends...gotta love women.

Erika and Lisa Rinna...gorgeous home, tough conversation. I feel for RInna. I don't think she meant to start this whirlwind, but it's out now, and she has to do the right thing and own it with Yolanda. Yolanda deserves an apology, and Lisa feels remorseful--should be no problem, right?

Yolanda and Erika walking on the beach warmed my heart. I was happy to see Yolanda smiling and feeling good. Clearly they have a nice connection. I didn't pay too much attention to the conversation at Kyle's "BBQ" last week when they were talking about Bella and Anwar, I really didn't understand what the point of discussing it was. If you have a question, ask Yolanda. Surely she knows what's going on with her children better than anyone. That's the stuff that starts problems. We'll see how that one shakes out.

Yolanda and Lisa R. discussing the "outside chatter"...I do feel like Rinna owned it and sincerely apologized but regardless, it doesn't make it right, and Yolanda has every right to feel hurt and disappointed. I know what it's like when the ones who are supposed to have your back are the ones engaging in the "chatter." It's even more hurtful when it's your "friends." Note to self...get rid of those people, or keep them closer so you can keep an eye on them.

The par-tay...OK, we all dressed like two-bit hookers in ridiculously expensive, trashy outfits, but we looked pretty damn good if I don't say so myself.
I was so happy to see Eileen. She was the one that I felt the biggest affinity for from the start, and I was happy she was back from a heartfelt trip. I know she had jet lag, and she was a trooper to show up.
Erika using the c--- word...um, ya...I don't like the C-word. It's really harsh to me, very degrading, but somehow at this stage of the game, meaning today, Erika has gotten me used to it. I heard her say it so much, along with a few other choice words that somehow (I can't believe I'm saying this) don't seem that awful anymore. I know, strange...but it's true. I won't be using the word myself but nonetheless it seems funny when Erika says it.

My conversation with Kyle regarding Faye was completely organic and honest. I'm sorry if Kyle didn't or doesn't understand my feelings, but I'm not going to smile and act like I don't feel that way. I defend and protect those I love, too. I get it, but if Kyle and I are going to have a friendship, I'd rather she knows me for who I am and what I believe in. Trust me when I say, I'll always "have the balls" to speak the truth. Everything I said that night was true to who I am. I don't agree with what Faye did in writing that book...honestly, I think Faye probably regrets it. She sullied Nicole's memory.

I do believe Faye is in a completely different place now. I'm happy to say that, but people whom you've affected have a right to voice their grievances regardless of the time that passed.
I'm over it...I feel no ill will towards Faye anymore...I wish her happiness, honestly I do.

That's it for now, until next time.

xoxo,
Kathryn