This is the blog where I clear everything up.
First of all, yes, you can be a sober woman and take medication prescribed by a psychiatrist, especially when it’s medication you need. My sister’s death was so incredibly tough. Fast forward 10 years, and now my dad, my rock, passes away. At that point, yes, I needed medication. I was depressed and anxious, not able to get out of bed and walk to the shower without sobbing. But not once did taking a pill make me want to drink. Drinking was always my problem, not pills.
My dad, and his death, is a major reason why I am the way I am. Always questioning everything and everyone. It’s not to make anyone uncomfortable, it’s just the way I was raised. My father had #Nothing. For him to become successful, to become an icon, he questioned the purpose of everything, the meaning of everyone in his life, and the reason for his actions. I am like my papa. #DaddysGirl
If you don’t question your thoughts and actions, and the actions of those you're surrounding yourself with, you will never become a better version of yourself. You will be stuck in old habits. #Truth
I try to teach my kids the same way of living. And how cute is my little Ty Ty? So glad you guys got to meet him this episode! Rinna was right; he is a total ball of energy. I’m glad we both agree that bribery is an acceptable form of parenting. #NewSneakers
Even as I write this blog I am questioning my actions. Reliving the moments with these women is not easy. Could I have approached things in a different way? Yes, probably. But I have to remind myself that in those moments, that was what I was feeling, and that was my truth at that moment. Hindsight is always 20/20. But as I have said before, my goal is only to live out MYtruth, and if I am doing that, I am being as authentic as I can be.
There were some amazing moments between the ladies this episode and also some I didn’t understand. I am in #Love with Dorit for rollerblading with Eileen and Lisa Rinna. Seriously, how funny was that? Love a girl that’s up for anything! And major props to Dorit for pulling off such a great surprise at PK’s birthday party. The whole party was sexy, intimate, and then #POW, here’s Boy George! Amazing. For the part I don’t understand… What is Dorit trying to accomplish by bringing up Rinna’s bag of pills? Whose pot is she trying to stir? All I know is that most of the pills in that bag would make these women healthier…and calmer. #Vitamins
A lot happened at that party—more than I knew when I was actually there. But watching it back, now I see that Kim wasn’t happy with me. And apparently I am “always around.” Damn I’m quick! #LightningBolt. Truly, I think the things you notice that are “always around” you are the things you’re most scared of—or the things you’re scared to face. For Kim, that may be me, another sober woman who knows the disease inside and out.
Greece looked gorgeous! I haven’t been there since my 20’s #VacationTime. Always fun to see Erika Jayne perform, but even better to see her backup dancers! I definitely think I should have been the one to “handle” the abs of those hot guys! #NewJob
But again, with the moment I don’t understand… Kyle was so easily able to open up about her mom to Erika, but when I asked, trying to understand where she comes from, I was attacking her? Again, I think time will only show Kyle that I have the best intentions for her and her sister.
Note to Self: Maybe it was a bit dramatic to dump that guy because of his burger…but my gut says I did the right thing!