A Therapeutic Season for Alexia

So it's that time again! REUNION... What can I say? As expected, to say there was drama is an UNDERSTATEMENT! LOL! It would not be a Miami reunion without any. You always go into these things expecting that we will all walk away and it will be peaches and cream, but the only peachy thing that came out of this reunion was the color of our blush. The energy and tension was so present during filming, it was not a fun environment on and off camera. There was so much chaos that I had no other option than to try to sit back and not feed into it, not that I had a second to chime in… I couldn’t get a single word in with all these ladies yelling over each other!

It's not worth it. I won't fight other people's battles, especially if I feel it's useless, unimportant, and I am not going to accomplish anything. I'm not saying that my problems are more important than theirs, I'm just saying that mine are mine and they are real problems, so I won't bother. I have enough with mine. The past is the past and you can't hold on to it if you want to move forward.

For me particularly, as I have stated before, this season was very therapeutic for me, because I got to really share my personal challenges and progress with my family after Frankie's accident. I also feel liberated, because I finally was able to speak about something that happened 23 years ago that I was so ashamed of and had caused so much pain in my life and in my son Peter's life. I am so glad that all of you, my fans, got to see this, because I know that I'm not alone. I am eternally grateful for all of the incredible people showing support and sharing their own stories and how I have served as inspiration to them. That is what it’s all about!

Another subject I got to speak about at the reunion was my ex-husband Peter (Peter and Frankie's Dad) and our past. It was a very trying time for me; I struggled with acceptance, being a single mother, and loving someone enough to stand behind them and wait around. I kept his past from my kids for too long and maybe that was a mistake, but I am human and no one is perfect in life. I felt I was doing the correct thing by protecting them. Some have made comments about me being an enabler to Peter. I feel as parents we all do that, especially me, who feels guilty about everything. I try my best and always do what I feel is best at that given time. Parenting is a lifelong lesson; sometimes you win and sometimes you lose. I will do anything for my kids. We as a family have learned and we have moved forward. After Frankie's accident, his Dad was very present in the kids' lives and has been a tremendous help in Frankie's recovery. For that I am thankful. I tell Peter and Frankie they are the luckiest boys in this world, because they have two dads, Herman and Peter. We are all doing great and working on us one day at a time. That’s all we can do! Our greatest glory is not in never falling but in rising every time we fall!

There was one situation that dragged on for about 2 hours of this filming that made me very uncomfortable: Lisa and Joanna's fighting. I feel that if you are really friends with someone that you don't go around making hurtful accusations about them. Obviously, what I predicted was correct: they were NEVER friends and just pretended to like each other for whatever reason. Not sure they will ever make up after this fight.

I feel Lea will never forgive Adriana deep inside and will continue to bring up her past and everything she did for her. Joanna and Adriana will not talk ever again.

As far as I go, I'm good with all of the ladies. I had differences with Lisa, but we can talk, discuss, argue, and move forward. I like Lisa and have fun with her. I feel she's the one that always tries to attack me or question what I'm saying, but we're working on that. LOL! In regards to me and Lea, I hope she realizes that I didn't play both sides, because I simply don't need to. Their problems were not about me or because of me. I will continue to observe, listen, and be a friend to whoever is a friend to me.

As the season closes I just really want to say thank you to all of my fans. You are all so special and I hope to share another chapter of my life with you next season! Enjoy the holidays and always remember that family ALWAYS comes first! Everything else in the grand scheme of things is petty... Take it from me!

I leave you with this thought: "I've had dreams and I've had nightmares. I overcame my nightmares because of my dreams."

Besos (Kisses),
Alexia

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