Stuck in the Middle

Here we go again! My love life is unfolding in front of your eyes, and I will say that I will take a big part of the blame for not setting a date for the wedding. I let time go by, because I was so preoccupied with work and traveling. I always tell my friends or people I meet that if you get engaged, make sure to plan the wedding and set a date right away and go for it. Otherwise you get into your everyday life, and when time passes, it doesn't seem to be a priority anymore. The excitement goes away, especially if you are busy with projects and always traveling and basically living out of your luggage.

I always knew in my heart I love Romain and want to be with him, but I feel I always shied away from making the big move, because I wanted to still have my freedom. Maybe at some point in my life I felt once I married I wouldn’t have the freedom to do whatever I want or that maybe he will want me to be the typical housewife (which of course would never happen as I am an independent woman, and no one tells me what to do). I was happy being engaged, but now I feel that after so many years I need to put my foot down and finally start planning the wedding or break up and move on. It’s not that my career is any less important to me now and that’s why I am more ready, but more that I feel after five years you just have to make that commitment. Otherwise another five years will go by and I may have regrets. (Plus I want to look good in my wedding gown and still be youthful!). The biggest truth is my family will believe that we are going to tie the knot once they actually show up to the wedding, because with all the postponing they don't even think we want to get married anymore or have doubts.

Anyway enough about the wedding! Time will tell what will happen and where we stand... Aside from my wedding issues, I have to be in the middle of Marta and my fiancé, because all they have been doing lately is bickering. Romain complains she doesn't help around the house, and I am fed up with it, since I want them to be peaceful with each other, especially since they used to be really close in the past. I have no idea what has happened in the last year that they just don't get along anymore, but it breaks my heart. I can feel a terrible tension escalating on a daily basis. My sister is my best friend and I love her with all my heart. Even the thought of her not living with us kills me, because we do everything together (I mean almost everything for the dirty minds out there! Haha!). I am hoping Marta and Romain can work past whatever they are going through right now so we can focus on the fun and positive things in our lives.

Marta and I are kids at heart as you can tell when we are playing around at home. Even if we are bored, we make each other laugh and are just normal sisters that act like goofballs and love each other. Romain is definitely the more serious one in the household!

Maybe Romain gets upset at Marta because she walked in on him naked a few times now. I guess I can understand he wants his space, but he should also close the bathroom door when he is naked and getting ready so Marta doesn't have to see his, as she calls it, "ding dong" hanging out. And no, I don't trim Romain’s bush! I don't know where that came from, or maybe I did once, but that’s it!

God bless, guys!

xoxo,

Joanna