Alexia's Self-Sacrifice

I’m hesitant to write my blog after this episode, because I hate to be repetitive and beat a dead horse. Lea, I guess in an attempt to pretend she likes me and wants me at her fundraiser, invites me again. There is nothing wrong with that, but I’m just not feeling it, and there is too much gossip and bad blood at this point. I bring to her attention that I am going through a painful and confusing time in my life with my separation, but she doesn’t stop talking beyond the sound barrier to hear what I am saying. I couldn’t get a word in edge wise and was dismissed as “giving too much importance to non-important things.” I’m getting divorced for the love of God, where is the non-importance in that? It is very important to me, and it is emotionally consuming me beyond anyone’s imagination. I’m sure if Lea and her husband were going through a divorce, she wouldn’t think it was a “non-important issue” and no amount of jokes would go without castigation.

It is becoming increasingly uncomfortable to go to any social gathering, because Lea drags The Big Blonde with her everywhere now. He is always making snide and nasty remarks about me even when I am standing right next to him. Running into him at every social gathering is so unpleasant and uncomfortable. At this point, I prefer not to go to anymore functions if he is going to be in attendance. I often ask anyone I can if he will be at an event I am attending so that I can avoid him and avoid his drama.

Much of the gossip that Lea and The Big Blonde have been spreading has made it to my mother’s ears, and she is not a happy camper. She is social with Lea, but she knows who she really is. Mother decides to give The Big Blonde a piece of her mind in my defense. I’m sure his mother would have done the same for him, that’s what mother’s do. I don’t like to see my mother get so upset, and I would have preferred the whole thing to never have happened, but sometimes things just need to be said.

In my opinion, all the drama going on this season and all of the individual pain and struggles we are suffering pale in comparison to Alexia’s tragedy. It just broke my heart in a million pieces to see her crying about Frankie. She has always been so spiritual and strong in front of everyone throughout the entire year since Frankie’s accident. Even the day of the accident, I ran to the hospital destroyed and crying so worried about my friend and her son, and the moment I saw her so strong and holding her emotions together, she showed me what in incredible mother she was. Alexia gave me the emotional strength to think positive and pray for Frankie’s survival and full recovery. It has been a long road, and Alexia has dedicated all of her time to Frankie. Most people will never know what an amazing example of self-sacrifice and motherhood she is. I don’t have children of my own, but if I did, I could only hope to be half the mother that my friend is.