Well…so much for "rebuilding" a friendship…
When Jacqueline and Chris invited me and Joe to their house for dinner, I went because I truly believed Jacqueline wanted to work on healing our relationship, like I did. I thought this was a friendship worth saving since she and I had been so close for so many years. Maybe I'm naïve, but I was really looking forward to a nice night with her and Chris, with us talking and sharing a few laughs, trying to take steps to rebuild what we had lost. That obviously did not happen. I got invited to her house and got attacked –- again. No thanks.
Everything seemed fine when we first got there. I was happy to see C.J. and Nicholas, who have gotten so big. But when Jacqueline and I were alone and I began to tell her how I felt about the way she had treated me in the past, because I wanted to be honest with her, I felt like she started attacking me rather than really listening to what I was saying to her. She saw how uncomfortable I was but just kept going. Then she called my brother. To me, that was crossing a line. Who does that? Then, as you saw, she hit me below the belt with her nasty words. She was mean. For me, that was it. I had to leave. I had to remove myself from her negativity. As I've said before, I just want peace. I wasn’t getting any over there.
Truth be told, I felt the same way at her house that night that I did on her deck all those years ago when she just kept going with the questions about my legal issues, digging and digging. I thought it was weird that she asked so many really personal questions that none of my other close friends had ever asked me -– intrusive questions I would never ask them.
I really hope that one day Jacqueline and I can rebuild our friendship, but right now, I'm not so sure. I'm disappointed in the way she acted toward me that night. I had the best of intentions going there. But she showed me that she hasn’t changed at all. She was so vicious. It was sad to see her like that, to be honest. Hopefully she will find a way to stop being so negative and to learn to listen better and not make assumptions about things before lashing out. I hope she learns to be more positive.
On a more positive note of my own, I have to say I was really happy when Melissa defended me and my brother at lunch with Jacqueline. It makes me feel so good that things are good with her and my brother again. I was hoping the same thing would happen with Jacqueline, but it didn’t. But keep tuning in to see what happens next with us…you may be surprised! Or not!
I also liked how this episode focused a lot on family -- Siggy and her kids and me and Joe and our kids. Siggy is a great mom. Tradition is important to her, as it is with me and my family. I loved watching the moments with Joe and the girls but got emotional. It was hard to see Joe now that he is away. The girls and I miss him so much.
Hope you are enjoying the show –- and summer! Til next time…
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