Freud would have a field day with the fact that I've procrastinated writing this blog.
Tonight is different. Overall, there is a conversation about time spent with children. Pretty may be smarter than I think but not quite smart enough to realize that I'm going through a divorce, and my precious moments are divided. My balance as a mother and business person is knowing that I spend every moment possible with my daughter.
The one thing that is said universally is that it goes by so quickly. I may have made some money, but I am not “nannied” up, and I don't go out with girlfriends when I can be with my child. "Child care" doesn't get me more time with my angel. As I said about the conversation with Luann, this is the easiest decision I will ever have to make.
I can talk about the clown or about the ladies, but I gather that you want me to talk about the scene with my stepfather.
It has been a long time coming, and as I wrote in A Place of Yes, I don’t wear my story. I, genuinely, am not angry. I think I have longed for a person to discuss the craziness of my past with. I'm an only child and essentially an orphan, so there is no one I can turn or talk to that can acknowledge what I remember to be true. I do think that people do their best; all I can do is pay it forward by being the best mother to my daughter that I can possibly be.
We all have our stuff. I do have to take a moment and acknowledge something that recently happened. Ramona reached out to me to say how sorry she is about something that occurred between us in the past. She had relived a moment, and it triggered something in her.
I really am happy to be back. Some of the stuff I have experienced in the past few years is much worse than my past. I am using this experience for good, and I am enjoying being on this journey with you. We have been through so much together since the beginning, and I know there are many puzzle pieces missing.
Like Dorinda says, I'm an onion with many layers. We all are. Thanks for all the love. You are loving it, and so are we. If you love what you do, you'll be good at it. That's why The Real Housewives of New York City are back and better than ever.
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