Before I get into my blog, I would like to express my condolences to the Edmonds family. It has been a tragic and sad week for them with the passing of LeAnn. They are all in our family's prayers.
I can't imagine how difficult it would be to be newly married and only spending 50% of the time with my husband. This week focuses on the fact that Meghan has chosen to take care of Hayley when her mother LeAnn was ill. It didn't make sense to me that Meghan had a couples game night when her "couple" wasn't in town. I'm sure something came up at the last minute. I wasn't going to ask her why -- didn't want to start anything.
I was frustrated at game night. David and I have been doing well for the most part and he has frequently said to me that he never thought that we could be as close and romantically connected as we have been. I have repeated this to all the girls. When he answered the question that he was "less romantic," I was hurt and embarrassed. It looked like I wasn't telling the truth. David said he heard the question wrong. You all are seeing the real deal with what is happening between us, for better or worse. I clearly got upset and then I wish you could have seen us resolve everything 30 seconds later.
I know I have expressive eyes, there's no doubt about that! But I don't think they are judgey! I have used Botox a few times; I did it the first time when I was 47. Let's be honest. I have the most wrinkles of anyone on the show! It is my preference to use natural alternatives which you can see haven't worked very well! I have no issue with anyone using Botox, including Meghan. I was just surprised to hear that she was going to use it because I have never noticed a wrinkle on her face!
You get to see a glimpse of our interaction with Tina Konkin from the Couples Retreat in this episode. Almost two months have passed since our Couples Retreat. I individually keep in touch with Tina and her counterpart Margaret every week to help process through everything. I beat myself up often that I am not getting over everything more quickly, but it is nice to hear Tina's reminder that it can sometimes take up to two years to get through infidelity. In that case, I am doing well.
David is a guy's guy. He doesn't love having long conversations analyzing our relationship, especially after infidelity. I understand that. There are times that both David or I "check out." That is reality. It's only normal to want to take the easy way out and avoid the work. But we both end up going back and realizing why we our doing all of this -- to repair our marriage and our family. I am frustrated in our meeting that David does not want to do any individual therapy on his own. This was a tough moment for me. I need to know that we are both making an effort to repair our marriage. With the help of Tina and her team, that is happening today and it has put us on the fast track of healing.
Of course you are going to see me packing natural supplements for our Tahiti trip! I clearly should have brought more because when we landed I was sicker than a dog! I bit the bullet and took antibiotics because I wanted to get better as quickly as possible. I rarely take them anymore so I thought it would be okay. And clearly I missed the first bit of drama when I went to bed early! It was very nice to hear Lizzie and Vicki defending me!
Next week we dive into some crazy fun in Tahiti! Be sure to watch!!!
You can find out more about Tina Konkin and the Couples Retreat at www.couplesretreat.com.