In case you are wondering, Jolie did not and will not ever watch last night's episode. My believing that Shannon set me up and my response to Nina and Jaci's "neutrocious" (yes, I said that) lies will be revisited at the reunion, so Jolie probably will not be watching that either. I also asked the parents of Jolie's friends to please refrain from having their children watch the episode. The atrocious things that were said about me and my inappropriate responses, hopefully will never get back to "Shnuks" aka Jolie. I am so thankful that Jolie is still out of school for the summer while this episode is aired.
Losing my temper at the dinner party for Meghan was almost completely inexcusable. I acted like a raving lunatic. I admit I was wrong in many ways. I was embarrassed by my hysterical rants. I embarrassed my family and everybody involved. I want to apologize again here to Shannon and Tamra for the horrible names I called them. Of course they were in no way true or deserved. I also want to apologize to Meghan for ruining her special night. Clearly, I offended Heather's delicate sensibilities, so I apologize to her for that too.
The show is called REAL Housewives. It's real when I said I have anger management problems. My faults were on full display in this week's episode. This was me at my worst.
For someone to get irate there usually has to be a triggering event. For me, it was the fact that I believe Shannon set me up by giving Jaci and Nina a forum to spread vicious lies about my character. I have written about the set up in my blog now for the past few weeks. So, I am not going to restate the facts again here. Shannon denied it again at Kitiyama and continues to deny it to this day. In the '70s episode she fabricated some cock-and-bull story about Nina having some reason to attack me. At the sushi dinner, Shannon denied that Nina said "I don't need to suck anybody's dick to pay my bills" when she was sitting right there next to Nina on the couch, heard her say it, and told Nina she was keeping it real.
Shannon said I attacked her three times. On Heather's boat party I was joking with her about USC. Go back and watch it. I fist-bumped her to let her know it was a joke. So that strike doesn't count. At the '70s party I believe she set me up. So she initiated it. When I offered an olive branch to try to reconcile over lunch, she never admitted the truth, never apologized, and was equally guilty of yelling at me. We were both in the wrong. At Kitiyama, I was clearly in the wrong. So, by my count that's one strike.
In TV time it has been three weeks since the '70s party. Go Team USA! In real time, it was only a couple of days between me visiting Tamra at her house and the dinner at Kitiyama. When Tamra relayed the information that Nina Potter said I suck dick for money, it didn't really bother me at first because it was such a ridiculous lie. However, when I came home and I told Michael what Tamra had told me, he was pissed, which in turn got me pissed. Then Vicki comes over for dinner and I tell her what Tamra told me and she said, well Jolie may see it and other people who don't know you may hear about it as well. Now I am doubly pissed.
So, at Kitiyama I was thinking about what Tamra had told me and Vicki's advice. I felt distraught and started to cry. Then, I wanted to lash out at the source of my pain. I was trying to explain to the ladies how hurtful Nina's comments were. How could a mother say that about another mother? I felt I had to defend my character. So, I was explaining that I come from a good family, have a great work ethic, am financially secure and college educated. Shannon jumped in and criticized me when I said I went to college. That set me off. My temper boiled over. Regardless, I regret telling her to shut the f*** up and calling her a c***.
Tamra jumped in and said if I dish it out, I have to be able to take it. She is right. When I called Tamra a dumb f***, it was a case of ready, aim, fire. I should have directed my anger at Shannon, but Tamra got caught in the crossfire. I regret having said that to Tamra. To Tamra's credit though, she is resilient and forgiving. She bounced right back and didn't hold a grudge.
Did you all notice how Meghan said that at the '70s party she heard Nina say "I don't have to suck anybody's dick to pay my bills"? Huh? Meghan was in the other room at the time and couldn't have personally heard Nina say that. It just goes to show that rumors spread like wildfire. Meghan must have heard it from Tamra or Shannon before we had dinner.
So by now, dinner has gone loco. Heather said my behavior and the whole scene disgusted her. She had a good reason to be offended.
Interestingly, Heather must think she is the CPO (Chief Protocol Officer) and self-appointed boss of this crew. Trying to kick me out of my friend's party was uncalled for. She had no right to tell me to leave, that wasn't her party. Like I said, Heather tried to make it all about her.
You see at the end of the episode I am joking again, even after such as emotional night. It just goes to show that while I may get mad, I don't stay mad. I bounce right back, looking to have a good time. I am headed out of town. I will be in Hong Kong when the next episode airs. Fingers crossed, I hope things go better for me next week.